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医生的良心

2011-12-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

今天我 sort of 被逼和'梁太医' attached 了一个早上
在短短的两三个小时内
我见识到整个怀孕过程不同的 patient
从新人计划怀孕，第一，二，三怀孕期，到宝宝出世后复诊
每个 patient 进来他都帮他们做扫描
让我大开眼界的是那些怀着孕的 patient
当他帮她们做扫描时看到的画面
我可是第一次看现场叻

其中有个怀孕十个星期的 patient
她的宝宝大概也成型了
还可以看到他的'小小的尾巴'
手跟脚都短短小小的
心脏也跳得很快

还有一个怀孕二十个星期的 patient
她的宝宝已经像快要出世了
扫描还可以看到明显的骨骼
脑袋，心脏，五脏六腑内外都很明显
'小鸟'也可以看到 xD
宝宝在子宫里超活跃的一直动来动去
相信出世后可能是个出色运动健将

这架 ultrasound 有个特别功能
可以从我们常看到的 2-D 画面 convert 去 3-D 画面
convert 后整个宝宝的立体形状都可以看到
当'梁太医'要帮那个二十个星期的宝宝拍立体照时
那个宝宝竟然用他的手遮着他的脸
超可爱的! 在妈妈的子宫里还可以害羞
这架 ultrasound 超厉害的!
听说它的价钱可以买两架 Honda Accord >.<
将它也物超所值啦，应该啦 xD

OK... 兴奋后回到重点

今天有个快要生的 patient 和'梁太医'谈接生的价钱
我开始心想，来到我们这'什么都要第一'的centre
接生的价钱一定很贵吧
可是'梁太医'竟然跟 patient 讲
他收费和政府医院一样
并没有把价钱拉高
我有点吓到，心想怎么可能啊!
我们这位好心的'梁太医'好为 patient 着想
这对夫妇看起来收入也没有很高
不懂'梁太医'是不是对每个 patient 都这样说得呢? xD
如果是的话，他是个还有良心的医生
听说我们的'李太医'并没有让 patient 商量的余地
都是他自己为 patient 做决定的
关于'李太医'的都是听说而已，并没有实际证据，所以只能 assume 而已 xD

说真的现在的医生都是头刻上'利'字
并没有为病人做最好的决定
医生的原则不是'医者父母心'的吗?
应该对每个 patient 像自己的孩子
给予他们最好的吗?
为什么要在这颗心上刻上'利'字
他们的良心难道被狗叼走了吗?
说真的想'梁太医'酱的医生快要绝种了
希望不要让他们绝种，其他的希望他们可以找回自己的良心
酱世界上死和救不活的人也会越来越少

目标

2011-11-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

前几天我的叔叔问了一个问题
他问我是为了什么做工
那我就回答： "为了赚钱，以后能养家" 之类的答案
过后他竟然大声的笑
他说：我问了很多人这个问题
90%给的答案跟我回答的一样
然后这90%的人还在打工

我给了他一个惊讶的表情，说：怎么可能?!!!
他跟着解释了他的回答
他说因为那90%的人都是盲目工作者
每天只是工作工作工作，做好自己本分就好的人
他们缺少的是目标
有了目标，人才能努力朝着已设下的目标往前走
才会达到成功之路

我听了过后觉得惭愧
因为我工作了这三个月内
的确是盲目的工作
是有学新的东西
但多数不是关于遗传学的
觉得有种浪费光阴的感觉

从今天开始我要奋斗了
目标... 暂时还没有，但即将会有 xD
我要把自己从那普普的90%升级到卓越的10%!
成为一个成功的遗传学家!

(哈哈... 讲了有点心虚... xD 尽量就好吧... 暂时)

小叮当的时光机

2011-10-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

雨，连续在同一个时候下了一个星期
下雨天，我并不完全讨厌它，也不完全喜欢
它可是启动我心中无底洞里，小叮当时光机的钥匙
带我回到过去重新观看那些堆尘卡带电影
这时光机，有一些故障
小叮当的时光机，可以和过去接触
可是这个时光机，只能看着从前播放着
不能接触，不能改变
什么都不能做，只能在一切发生的周围眼睁睁看着
所以每次带回来的手信只有失望
不懂明天是不是也在同一时刻下雨呢?
那时光机又会带我到哪里去呢?

雨水下了一个星期对我来说已足以积成海了
加上暴风雨，海水也变成汹涌的海浪
真的希望这海浪可以穿透我的伤心
让我听见那红色生命的声音
可我这个渔夫，每天都在船上撒网
希望能捞到一个可以让我听见‘它’的声音
但每天都没收获
是不是坚持下去就一定能捞到呢? 谁知呢?

當男孩轉變成男人時

2011-10-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

嘿, 不知大家多少歲呢
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男人本不壞，不是嗎？
十歲以前，他什麼都不懂，就不說了。
十三、四歲的時候，開始對女孩有好感，但是那時候他離女孩遠遠的，並且以討厭女孩自居，生怕被同伴嘲笑。
十五歲的時候，聽到大人們說某某男人好花，把女朋友甩了，女孩自殺了。他覺得這人真狠毒，自己將來一定要做個癡情的男人，一定要一生只愛一個人。
十六歲的時候，他喜歡上了一個女孩，但是他不敢和她說。仍然和往常一樣，臟兮兮的在灰土飛揚的操場上踢球。
只在女孩走出校門的時候，躲在二層的窗戶上看她的背影，他覺得她一定是個天使。
十七歲的時候，有個女孩喜歡上了他，但是他離她很遠，心裏面只有自己那個女孩，
他覺得看別的女孩都是對她的不忠。
十八歲的時候，看了一個MTV，感動得想哭；他想，如果自己的女孩失去了雙眼，他一定會像男主角會毫不猶豫的把自己的眼睛給她，讓她能看到光明。
十九歲的時候，高考了。終於和自己暗戀的女孩分別，坐火車去學校的時候，感覺自己離她越來越遠，
心像被掏空了一樣。還在想自己一定不會忘記她，等到自己成功以後一定要去找她。
二十歲的時候，聽到有人講黃色笑話，覺得這人真可恥。
二十一歲的時候，她的回信中告訴他，自己有了男朋友。他為此偷偷的哭了一個晚上。
二十二歲的時候，他向一個女孩表白，女孩說：「你是個好人，可是我還小。」他想，我的確是個好人，然後他說：「沒關係，我可以等妳。」
心想，我不會像那些花心的人一樣，三年五年我也能等。
二十三歲的時候，聽說自己還小的女孩跟一個帥哥戀愛了。他很納悶，長大原來可以這樣快。
二十四歲的時候，他又向一個女孩表白，女孩說：「你是個好人，可是我並不適合你。」
他納悶很久，我是好人，妳怎麼還不適合我呢？
二十五歲的時候，他又追求一個女孩，女孩接受了他。他開始很幸福的為未來拼搏，
他想，一時的開心只是暫時的，只有努力拼搏，他和她才能有快樂的未來，但是，半年以後，女孩和他分手了，
只是因為另外一個男孩會說讓她開心的話。女孩說：「你是個好人，是我對不起你。」
至此，他似乎明白了問題所在－－他是個好人！
二十六歲的時候，他開始墮落。打扮得時尚而酷，而且漸漸的學習著討好女孩的話。
不久，他有了個女朋友，雖然他對她也很好，可是，他心裏知道，自己並不愛。
二十七歲的時候，他和女孩分手了。他對女孩說：「妳是個好女孩，是我對不起妳。」
二十八歲的時候，他嘗試了一夜情，發現別人能做的，自己也一樣。
二十九歲的時候，他學會了講黃色笑話，並且以看旁邊的女孩子臉紅為樂趣。
三十歲的時候，他忽然發現自己變得很有能力追求到女孩，但是卻沒有了愛的能力。
其實每個男孩，本來都是想做一個感情專一的好男人的。
其實每個男人，本來看女孩子都是看臉而不是身材。
其實每個男人，本來都是不會講黃色笑話的。
其實每個男孩，本來都是渴望愛一個人直到永遠的。
只是，沒有任何女孩愛這樣的男孩，她們覺得這樣的男孩太幼稚，太古板，沒有情趣。
於是男孩開始改變，變成女孩喜歡的那種嘴角掛著壞壞。
開始學會說甜言蜜語而不是心裏想說的話。
開始學會假裝關心，學會給女孩送小飾物討好她，學會如何追求，如何把握愛情。
或者看破紅塵，遊戲情場，成為女人恨恨的那種男人。
他們可以很容易俘獲女孩子的心，但是他們也會在黑的夜裏叼著煙流淚。
心裏有愛的時候，沒有女孩；有了女孩，卻永遠沒有了愛的感覺！
當男人聽到女人抱怨世上沒有一個好男人時候，他們不會再去努力做個好男人，只是微笑著擦肩而過。
女人，男人變壞了，妳們就沒有責任嗎？從來都知女生只愛壞男孩，那些不當妳們是一回事，喜歡有多壞便多壞的，
偏偏會令妳們著迷，更會得到妳們的歡愛。因為妳們會覺得明明為他付出了那麼多，千依白順般，
他還是會這樣對我，一定是我做得不夠，我要更加千依白順，他終有一天會明白的，會感動的。
卻不會明白江山易改，本性難移這千古名句....... 浪子回頭.... 又有幾多人可以做到......
或許有一天他累了便會穩定，但那時在他身邊的可能已經不是妳了....... 相反那些對妳很好，為了著想，不讓妳受傷害的男孩，
卻只會做到好朋友，不明白為何如此嗎，第一原因是：沒挑戰性，太容易得到他全部了，
他太千依白順了，沒男子氣慨般，沒主見....甚麼也說我喜歡便可，到最後一切一切都變了質，當初的好處到最後變了缺點。
第二個原因是 : 一直的好不及那一時的好，好男孩一直都對妳很好很好，令妳變得習以為常，
相反那些壞的，偶然的一次半次溫柔卻能令妳輕易受感動........... 這不是很可笑嗎

不应该学超人飞

2011-10-01T22:27:00.001+08:00

看来妳不是我的答案
我不应该一步登天
走路还站不稳就像学超人飞
还是一步一脚印比较实际
慢慢来吧... 顺其自然吧...

愿望清单

2011-09-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

我很喜欢钢琴声
也希望自己能学弹钢琴
我很喜欢旅游
很希望能环游世界
我家的小红常常会生病
并不是嫌弃他，但我希望有个能安全载我的老婆
我也想要有个智慧电话
还有很多很多想要的

人就是犯贱的，不会知足
有了一个糖果，过后会想要吃芝士蛋糕
人生有目标是好的
但是太多可能只会弄得自己更累
我很希望我能清完我的愿望清单
完成我所有的目标
要清完我的愿望清单
只需要一个字：钱

到现在我还没遇到没钱
但又能获得幸福快乐的人
可能这就是现实
但我相信没钱幸福快乐的人是存在的
我希望能从他们身上学到窍门
让我的欲望感降低

理财，说难不难，说易不易
重点在于计划和坚持
而这两者一定要达到平衡
就像阴阳一样
到目前为止计划是有了
但能不能坚持也是个问题
为了清完我的愿望清单
我一定要坚持下去!!!

想太多

2011-08-31T21:27:00.000+08:00

今天整天都有一股无缘无故，无原无因很down的情绪
一直缠绕在我身体
一直到奶茶店，到我回家
过后我什么都不想
就在椅子上睡了个觉

难道我有通灵能力? 有预知能力?
呵呵... 开玩笑!
一定是我想太多
不管了，明天尽情享受海边的休闲乐趣
希望老天爷不要辜负我

结束，开始

2011-08-22T00:01:00.001+08:00

今天的晚上好宁静
写部落格的心情又涌起了

昨天可是我大学的毕业典礼
时间真的过得很快
转眼就三年了
这三年的辛酸痛苦我尽然挨完了
真的不简单
我相信这三年所挨的只不过是芝麻绿豆
将来我要挨的还有很多
在此我要感谢妳，林碧霜
谢谢你参加我的毕业典礼
可惜我们又没有机会坐下谈谈
我一定会找机会实现我们定下的诺言
我要感谢老天爷让我认识这么好的一班大学朋友
我会永远永远记得你们
记得我们一起所挨过的，记得你们的大恩大德
大学的经过，我永远不会忘记

八月五日这一天
是我踏进社会的第一天
失业了两个月半我终于找到工作了
在一间人工受孕所担任基因学家
工作并不难，只是每做的一件事都要很小心
否者一切功亏一篑，而且不能重来
所以每天我都要提心吊胆
我也‘见过一次鬼，所以也怕黑了’
工作时间超长的
平时最少十二个小时
没办法，人手不够
每天我跟自己说只不过是暂时性而已
将来一定会有六点放工的一天
面试时老板跟我说会让我接受很多的培训
听senior说年尾会带我到澳洲接受培训
我超期待的，希望她不是随口说说而已
这条路真的能走到很远很远
为了实现梦想，我会奋斗到底

今天本来想去买杯珍珠奶茶喝
我并不是很想喝，只不过我‘史翁之意不在奶茶’
最后还是没去
我想起毕业典礼时坐我旁边的保险业者跟我说
毕业后的恋情会加入很多很多因素
女生会看你是否有经济保障才和你在一起
和上学时的不一样了
随缘吧~~ 时间能证明一切

2011-07-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

今天情绪很down
真的很害怕
害怕失去我喜欢的，我想要的，我喜爱的...
我一定要加倍努力
明天开始要认真了
真名我的实力
上天请保佑我，给我勇气和自信面对种种挫折!
我会很珍惜'它'!

机会，希望，运气

2011-06-30T01:03:00.001+08:00

机会已经有了
第一步，我已经踏出了
程序都大概一样，所以我没能做什么
在第一步和第二步之间，存在的是等待
在这过程，是最痛苦的
因为我什么都不能做
除了等待，还是等待
唯能做的是希望
希望着第二步的到来
而希望是有幕后黑手操控着
幕后黑手是运气
运气好，希望就会到
运气不好，就只能怪天意

我真的很希望第二步的到来
但是这两个星期的运气都很不好
并不是说我迷信
而真的这两个星期什么事都很不顺利
运气，不由得我来掌控
所以我也做不了什么

别人说四叶草是象征着运气
那我就在这里摆个"四叶草阵"
希望能给自己带来好运
希望第二步能尽快到来
若真的达成，我会遵守提出的诺言，我保证!!

前进的第一步?

2011-04-02T23:52:00.002+08:00

为了实现我那不为人知的梦想
我给我自己开始铺稳基础
距离有一个月了
虽然有些指数没什么改变
但是效果是有看到得啦
也给自己奖励奖励了

最近食欲上有点控制不了
可能是三，四月的关系
蛋糕也比平时吃多了
尤其今天的三餐还超不健康的
早餐油炸鬼，午餐牛奶cereal(还好)，晚餐自煲肉骨茶
真的怕会空亏一场
看来要加倍努力了

妳问我的是非题我已经回答你了
~~虽然你问的时候有点不对也坐了时光机好几十遍了~~
我不知道你过后会有怎样
毕竟时间也过了蛮长的
无论如何我认为还是顺着时间命运流逝吧
看它们会带我们到哪里好吗？

Why do I? Why should I?

2011-03-16T19:23:00.000+08:00

Steven oh Steven...
Why do u need to worried so much?
Why do u need to care bout it so much?
It's none of your business...
You doesn't belong in that world...
You knew about it right?
Then why should you worried and care so much?
You know you should be forget about it...
You know you should not think about it even a single dust on it...
So please don't care about it...
There are more things that you need to worry more than this...
So just assume as if nothing happens... Okay?

我的志愿？

2011-03-06T20:39:00.000+08:00

记得小学时老师都出《我的志愿》为作文题
也曾写过很多种语文版的
还有一张卡我不是很记得是for什么了每个学生都要填上自己的志愿
还记得小时可能常看科幻卡通或科幻片，又喜欢画画
那时不懂事的我在《我的志愿》都填写过医生，科学家，太空人，画家...
还以为有想过就一定能把志愿实现

现在长大了才知道以前的想法有多天真
要成医生，科学家，太空人或画家不是说想要就要
有太多太多太多的因素必须考虑
还记得亲戚们曾说过当画家赚不到钱会流落街头摆摊画像
还有很多很多的导致一路升学时都不知道选的路是否对或错
一直都是以船到桥头自然直的心态来选择要走的路

到了中五这艘船到了一个分叉路
左边是药剂右边是生物医学还有条小路写着设计
听了很多的传闻加上自己的研究我的指南针就指向了我以为很容易右边
过后才觉得世上没有什么容易困难的
全部都需要自己的努力
说真的我一点都不后悔选择了这条路
一切的选择都是自己做的并没有任何人强逼威胁
我也相信古人说的行行出状元所以选择是什么都是ok的

现在要毕业了又要乘着这艘船航行了
会不会走向曾经想航行的志愿路上?
但此刻我想到新加坡去工作如果可以的话
虽然是有亲戚在那里可以投靠
但是我也不想麻烦人家
所以现在都学着一个人生活
我知道不容易但我一定能做到一定可以

八月就要毕业了过后的生活会很艰难
一个人单枪匹马要到异国"行走江湖" (如果成功的话)
说真的我很不舍得这三四年
可以说是目前为止人生过得最精彩的时候
毕业后只能回忆时间是不能重来的
我也不奢望大家会永远记得我但偶然想起我我也会很开心

哦我也想向一位叫Ms.一半的人借此留言：

妳好吗相信我们会很快就见面了
还是妳已经在我身边出现了在跟我玩抓迷藏
希望妳过得很好
当妳遇见我请放心
让我好好照顾你一直到一生一世
让妳成为世上最幸福的人

超爱这首歌

面具

2011-02-20T01:55:00.000+08:00

我遗失了我的面具
哪位有心人士若有看到我的面具
请你还给我... 好吗?

在现实社会里
我认为每个人都一定要有个面具
面具并不是用来为自己天添上多一个脸变成双面人
而是用来遮盖自己的缺点
完完全全的透露吃亏的是自己

但是在现实社会里
每个角落仿佛摆了很多照妖镜
能照出面具后面的缺点
除非你有照妖镜照不到特质的面具
我却没好好放好这个特质限量面具
就这样就遗失了
我只好继续寻找或等有心人士捡到还我
不然就自己在做过咯我知道这比登天还难
加油吧！=(

我是谁?

2011-02-09T23:33:00.000+08:00

就在昨晚临睡的五分钟，突然有位 "不速之客" 在MSN和我聊天...
（我们以前是很要好的朋友。自从那件事后，我们已经有大概一年多没讲过话了...）
在聊天当中，虽然只有短短的五分钟（我当时真的撑不住了，要困了）但她让我想起很多事...

内容大概是：

她: how are you?
我: oh me, erm... im still who i am... yea...
她: haha, still who you are eh? okok X)was wondering...
她: what happened to us both oh hahaha!

过后我也很 random 的回答：

我: haha nice to meet u im steven
她: nice to meet you weiyuan... i knew you as weiyuan...
她: i'll always remember you as such... steven is just a cover up name like mine...

当他这样的回答时，我心里当时
好像有一种超强的吸引力把我吸到另一个黑色空间
这个空间一直播放着很多很多往事画面
我也在这个空间里想了很多很多

我想她说的没错
我在这一年多或许真的变了很多
或许就像妳说的变成了另一个人了... 我想妳也是，对吗？
在这一年多里，我的确是有一段时间失去自我
就像一个失忆人一直问着我是谁
可能人生就是一直要不停的在改变
不管是性格上，情绪上，理智上，还有很多很多
这算不算是人进化过程的必经呢？不晓得...

表达能力差的我，其实有很多话早想对妳说
其实我想说，那天妳的任性，我气了然后不辞而別
其实我老早就原谅妳很久很久了
但是我看见的是一天有一天妳的冷漠... 看来妳还没原谅我
一天有一天最后累积成一年多了
在这一年多里我一直都有默默打听你的消息希望妳过得很好
我知道妳现在真的过得很好我也替妳感到高兴
妳再次和我聊天，应该是原谅了我吧
我很高兴我也希望妳会永远的快乐

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

说些有趣的... 其实也没什么大不了的啦
就是我在浴室冲凉时
突然心血来潮大声的唱了一句:你是我的眼~~~
一秒后后巷传来几个人连续很大声的打喷嚏声
哈哈看来我声音有很多的"灰尘"
过后我马上就收声了 xD

情人节又要到了
看来这次也是过单身情人节了
那我也祝全世界的情侣有情人终成眷属
我也祝全世界的单身们桃花朵朵开能快快再见单身咯 =）

One Step At A Time

2011-01-29T00:35:00.002+08:00

Should I ever start imprint my first footprint?
How many steps left for me to take before I hit your wall?
Can I possibly climb over your tall wall?

尝试

2011-01-09T22:51:00.002+08:00

我尝试了..... 改变
但是一点都不简单
参加了一场竞赛
最后 'Mr. Ben' 还是连拿冠军
是 'Mr. G' 不够坚定吗? 还是它该顺其自然?

我尝试了..... 忘记
最近在面子书有很多人 post 关于星座的文章
好奇的我通常都会去看看下但不会全信
但是有其中一个文章说的很准
其实我相信每个人都会和那文章说的一样
如果不是的话除非他有痴呆症
可能我真的需要等待下一个烙印才能完全的...

我尝试了..... 另一种的改变
这个算是成功吧
其实我真的不想有这样的冷漠
我一直塞进仓库里快被我塞爆了
没位子了我还是得继续塞
我会在仓库打破一个洞口
让里面的东西慢慢的从仓库漏出来...

史上最糟糕的平安夜

2010-12-25T00:24:00.000+08:00

今天超级pek chek的
本来打算剪个头发过圣诞的
怎知道被剪到很超烂

当我到理发店时
那个常帮我剪头发的理发师不在
应该是放假了吧留下两个"靓妹"在店里
我想他们也应该ok的吧
打开门做生意应该有点料的吧
我随便选一个跟她讲: 剪短,一点点
她用了一个很不爽的语气oh了一声
我也不懂他不爽什么有没有得罪她
她竟然一下子拿那个电剪就直接从我侧边头发剪过
根本没有estimate下的喔
还好没有剪到像剃光头酱但是短到很难看咯
嗨明天还要见亲朋戚友的叻我要怎样见人啊!!!
整个理发过程我一直冒冷汗
最后连我的逛街mood也被她破坏了

"靓妹"就是"靓妹" 就是靠不住的
算了下次不要找她剪了
pek chek...

Access Denied

2010-12-24T23:56:00.006+08:00

2010-12-15T23:19:00.001+08:00

今天一天内发生了两件事

第一件：一场现实的"梦"
是一场的的确确发生在现实的"梦"
差点就掉进陷阱
还好我还有少许潜意识把我拉回来
从"梦"中醒来

第二件：人性本"私"?
今天放工后我发现我"老婆"的车胎漏风了
我第一印象告诉我的是
一定是隔壁店的人不爽我泊在那放我车胎的风
因为我有同事被放警告纸条
但是经过详细检查后是被铁钉刺到

为什么我们人的第一个印象永远是别人而不是自己呢
为什么我们不会把责怪的优先权把自己放在第一呢?
难道人性本"私"? (还是只是我而已 xD)

I'm Officially Missing You~~

2010-12-11T01:19:00.002+08:00

"以为", "重蹈覆辙", "想象力" 的罪名

2010-12-05T23:34:00.001+08:00

最近情绪有点down
一切都是"以为"的错
它就是这件事的幕后黑手
其实我一直都很想把它放下
但是 "重蹈覆辙"一直帮我捡起来
应该是第 n 次了吧不是很记得了
如果早早把它放下了现在会不会更好呢?
人家说男人大丈夫该拿得起放得下
天真的我以为这应该很容易办到吧
但是我还是办不到我不是个男人大丈夫

我也应该怪罪于"想象力"
都是它的错都是它的错!!
都是因为它 "重蹈覆辙"才一直帮我捡起来
如果"想象力"可以在真确的地方发挥我会超感激它
但是它一直在滥用职权一直用在不正当的地方
如果上天想要在我身上拿走东西那请您拿走"想象力"吧

人家说世上唯一能解决一切问题的答案是"时间"
那我应该好好利用"它" 让它担任法官
只有"它"能征服"重蹈覆辙" 然后征服"以为"
"它"虽然可以征服"想象力" 但是需要很长很长的"它"
不过我应该可以办到 (应该..... 我也不知道)
"它"也剩下不少了

嗨... 还是过一日,算一日吧...
希望"以为"不要再犯错了
希望"重蹈覆辙"不要再乱捡了
希望"想象力"不要再滥用职权了

~~如果妳觉得它们没有错请帮它们请律师... 让它们罪名不成立...~~

真的不能理解

2010-11-18T02:22:00.000+08:00

有时候我在想
为什么人可以有酱的想法
明明是没有结局没有将来没有未来的
但是他/她们还是坚持下去
他/她们会说什么这些是天生的啦
要怪就怪基因啦
Come on lah...
我知道成语都有所谓的 "情比金坚"
但是老天爷的所为是有原因的
人类就是老是喜欢破坏规则
若越来越多人有酱的想法
真的可能会是造成世界末日的原因之一

2010-11-07T01:07:00.000+08:00

想找个聆听者
但是临时找不到
就只好在这里说

剩下两天而已了
我很担心担心会过不了这一关
我并没有全力以赴
我一直觉得我只是很敷衍地把它读完
每个人正在努力的奋斗着
但是我我只是在浪费光阴
为什么我就不能好好利用时间呢

在这里怨也不是办法
是该好好利用剩下的时间了

唉....... 我真没用.......

Sweet Dream: Last Episode

2010-10-14T23:50:00.001+08:00

Well apparently someone requested me to write my blog in english more often... So here's one of it...

I've been seeing a lot recently
I saw：

♫ Slight denial
♫ Fear
♫ Prevent
♫ Escape from troubles and misunderstanding
♫ Awkward

So it seems that what I've seen previously
Is just the view I saw when 'the Earth rotates at its own orbit'
I'm still standing at the same position
No one take me away from the spot I'm standing

I guess my sweet dream is at somewhere near the last episode
Is time for me to wake up
I had dreamed for too long too long...

I guess there's no need to worry
I'm getting ready for the worst
Though it is not fully prepared
When I wake up I will still be who I am
Everything will go back to the origin
As if nothing happens...

Even though the week had only reach half, there's no need to continue anymore
Coz there's no meaning since the weekends will not happen to you and me...

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2010-10-06T18:11:00.002+08:00

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是真的吗? 是对的吗?

2010-09-25T01:45:00.001+08:00

现在
我有一百万个 “是真的吗? 是对的吗?” 的问题

但是
我在乎的并不是一百万个问题里
有多少个的答案 “是真的是对的”
有多少个的答案 “不是真的不是对的”

我在乎的是
到底是不是每个问题的答案 “是真的 是对的”
到底是不是每个问题的答案不是真的不是对的

希望我能尽快看到我在乎的答案。。。

♥ = The Saltwater Room - Owl City

史提芬经历离奇事件

2010-09-13T14:45:00.000+08:00

其实也不是什么离奇事件啦... 只是觉得奇怪而已...

Ok... 事情是这样... 想当年(几天前而已)在面子书~~

有个朋友在面子书里问我，照片里的人是我吗？
那张照片是我去年和名模 Amber Chia 合照的照片
我回答他照片里的人是我
当时我以为她是游览我面子书里的相簿看到的照片
那张照片其实并不是从我的相簿里来的
而是从一个 Amber Chia 面子书的账户来的

离奇想法和分析：
（一）当时我就想可能是当时在场的摄影师拍的吧
           我印象中好像有摄影师拍我们合照
           然后她在她的账户里 post 上去的吧
           她曾经说过他有面子书的账户
           但应该不是上面指的那个账户
           可是奇怪的是，那张照片是和我在面子书 post 上去的一模一样
           就算是世界上最专业的摄影师也不可能拍到一模一样吧
           我也相信马来西亚没有酱的摄影师
           还有现在的摄影师都用 DSLR 照相机吧
           怎么可能拍出 quality 没有酱好的照片

（二）Ok... 就算是她从摄影师那边拿到照片
           然后 post 在她的账户里的相簿
           但是当我浏览她的相簿里的照片时
           其他的照片都是她摆 pose 的照片
           还有一些卡通老鼠照片（可能她喜欢老鼠）
           不然就是和一些 VIP 合照照片
           只有我那唯一的照片是像和平民百姓合照
         我也并不算是个俊男吧
         她也有和很多人合照啊
         我也相信我不会给他留下那么深刻的印象吧
         为什么只有我的照片在那边

经过分析后，我觉得最合理和逻辑来解释这件事应该是这样：

在去年当我 post 那张照片在面子书时
我的其中一个朋友看了之后，然后就 share 给他的朋友
然后他的朋友又 share 给他的朋友
一直 share，一直 share...（经过多次的 share...）
最后 share 到这位冒充 Amber Chia 开账户的人
然后他就把那张照片 post 上去他的相簿里

他的动机是什么？我也想知道咯... 但人心难测... 更何况他是个陌生人...
希望他并不是心理有问题的人 >.<
还有那张照片到底会传到哪里？会传到多少人？也很难猜测，很难想象吧...
虽然我知道在面子书 post 照片的后果有多么不堪设想
我也因此没在面子书 post 照片了
虽然那并不是什么很私人的照片
但是没想到会在我这里发生
既然那照片已被那个人 post 上去了
应该不可能要他拆下来吧
希望那照片只传到他那边而已不要再传来传去了

Haizzz....

You're amazing... Just the way you are...

2010-09-06T00:30:00.006+08:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day (If she ask me)

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her (If I have a chance)
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see (Yup you just don't see what I see T_T)

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say (If she ask me)

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

时间冻结

2010-08-31T22:55:00.002+08:00

最近我再次体会多次“时间冻结”
而体会到的时间停顿也延长了
而这几次和上几次的感觉
也有明显的不同
因为这几次的
我并没有把它复杂化
因为时间也不多了
也没有把它看得很简单
我只是把它看成纯粹的时间冻结

最近我再次体会多次似曾见过（所谓的 dejavu）
而这几次的感觉也有明显的不同
最近的似曾见过感觉越来越强烈
有其一我记得是曾经在梦中发生
这是不是正常？有谁也曾经也有这样的经验？
为什么会这样？为什么我常常会有？为什么？？？

最近我一直觉得很累
每天都会在课室角落睡着
睡觉也并不是因为课堂很闷
有时有趣的课我也会睡着
身体也觉得沉重酸痛
虽然有时我会怨一下到底这一切值不值得
但心里却告诉我不要去计较
难道要得到成果，就一定要付出代价吗？

顽固污渍

2010-08-22T01:58:00.003+08:00

最近的想象力超丰富的
当无所事事时会不知不觉进入想象的世界
而且还会去到一个很远很远很远的地方
但是最终我还是会回来现实世界
可是每一次回来时
都会带回一些“顽固污渍”

这些“顽固污渍”会一直让你想回去那想象的世界

曾经有个人告诉我：在事实面前，你的想像力越发达，后果就“越不堪設想”。

所以我一定要尽快把它清除
可是暂时还没找到清除的方法
(如果有谁知道清除方法请尽快告诉我 >.< )
现在我只能用时间的流逝让那“顽固污渍”慢慢地从我脑海里离开。。。。。。

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Just a song I would like to share~~~ A song that makes me feel blues~~~

~♫ Just One Last Dance - by Sarah Connor ft Marc Terenzi ♫~

Lyrics~♫♫♫

We meet in the night in the Spanish cafe
I look in your eyes just don't know what to say
It feels like I'm drowning in salty water
A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise
Tomorrow will come an it's time to realize
Our love has finished forever

How I wish to come with you (wish to come with you)
How I wish we make it through

Just one last dance
Before we say goodbye
When we sway and turn round and round and round
It's like the first time
Just one more chance
Hold me tight and keep me warm
Cause the night is getting cold
And I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

The wine and the lights and the Spanish guitar
I'll never forget how romantic they are
But I know, tomorrow I'll lose the one that I love

There's no way to come with you
It's the only thing to do

Just one last dance
Before we say goodbye
When we sway and turn round and round and round
It's like the first time
Just one more chance
Hold me tight and keep me warm
Cause the night is getting cold
And I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

Just one last dance
Just one more chance
Just one last dance

想说的话

2010-08-10T16:23:00.003+08:00

最近当做决定或处理事情时
我都会做到三思或以上
我都会考虑到更远的后果
很少跟着直觉做决定了
除非在逼不得已的情况下
这可能是件好事
至少我能减少很多很多个"万一"发生

回到重点

To: 林兄台，孙兄台，吕姑娘，冯姑娘，吴姑娘，潘姑娘

真的很谢谢你们
谢谢林兄台的细心教导
打扰你的宝贵时间真的很不好意思 >.<"
还有谢谢孙兄台，吕姑娘，冯姑娘，吴姑娘，潘姑娘
谢谢你们做我的聆听者
要你们听我的噪音真的很不好意思 >.<"
谢谢大家能让我在我的 To-Do-List 大个满足的勾
你们的大恩大德在下没齿难忘

To: "皮"小姐

昨天是你的生日
我竟然一点印象都没有
可能你在我脑海里的存在
已经消失大概一半了
在你还没从我脑海里完全消失前
我只想提醒你要坚强点
不要再这么容易被人欺负了
不要再这么敏感了
不要再这么感性了
希望你过得很快乐

不见了的"红酒"

2010-08-01T00:12:00.002+08:00

最近
我在我的仓库里
做了库存检查
发现有一支"红酒"不见了

它是在1989年秋季中酿制的
这支"红酒"已收藏了二十年了
价值因岁月累积而慢慢提升
也是我遗产里的一部分

现在我非常需要它
没有它好多事情会变成不顺利
它却偏偏在这个时候不见了

好希望它现在就回到我身边
有谁找到它的话请马上通知我
我现在真的真的很需要它

烟雾弹

2010-07-24T00:08:00.003+08:00

最近走着的路途中
踏上了一条道路
这条道路埋伏了千千万万个烟雾弹
而我也不小心的走了一步
地上埋伏的一些烟雾弹也因此触发了
周围充满了烟雾
视线也被蒙蔽了
心里也有太多因素必须考虑
让我进退两难左右为难

我该怎么办呢?
难道就只好站着不动吗?

看来我是应该知足了
我现在所拥有的可能已经足够了
视线不应该望得那么远
或许我不应该踏上这条道路
只好怪自己一直看错了路牌

我很希望有个龙卷风的出现
让这龙卷风把这里的烟雾吹走

或者把我吹到一个新的道路
好让我在这陌生的道路重新开始

你也是这么觉得吗?

~♫ Nothin' On You ♫~

2010-07-13T21:47:00.003+08:00

Well recently I'm in love... But in love to a song...
Yup as the title, the song that I in love since the first day that song release...

~♫ Nothin' On You - by B.o.B ft. Bruno Mars ♫~

Lets first listen to the original version...

Lyrics ~♫♫♫

Beautiful girls all over the world, I could be chasing
But my time would be wasted, they got nothing on you, baby
Nothing on you, baby
They might say hi, and I might say hey
But you shouldn't worry, about what they say
'Cause they got nothing on you, baby (Yeah)
Nothing on you, baby (N-n-n-nothing on you baby, n-nothing on you)

I know you feel where I'm coming from
Regardless of the things in my past that I've done
Most of it really was for the hell of the fun
On a carousel, so around I spun
With no direction, just tryna get some
Tryna chase skirts, living in the summer sun
And so I lost more than I had ever won
And honestly, I ended up with none

It's so much nonsense, it's on my conscience
I'm thinking "maybe I should get it out"
And I don't wanna sound redundant
But I was wondering, if there was something that you wanna know
But never mind that, we should let it go
Cause we don't wanna be a TV episode
And all the bad thoughts, just let ;em go, go, go

Hands down, there will never be another one (nope)
I've been around, and I've never seen another one (never)
Because your style, I ain't really got nothin' on (nothing)
And you wild when you ain't got nothin' on? (haha)
Baby you the whole package
Plus you pay your taxes
And you keep it real, while them others stay plastic
You're my Wonder Woman, call me Mr. Fantastic
Stop- now think about it

I've been to London, I've been to Paris
Even way out there in Tokyo
Back home down in Georgia, to New Orleans
But you always steal the show
And just like that girl, you got me froze
Like a Nintendo 64
If you never knew, well, now you know, know, know

Everywhere I go, I'm always hearing your name
And no matter where I'm at, girl you make me wanna sing
Whether a bus or a plane, or a car, or a train
No other girl's on my brain, and you the one to blame

Yeah (laughing)
And that's just how we do it (laughing)
And I'ma just let this ride

Ok~~~ Seems that girls would like to reply to this song too... Lets see what they gonna say...

Lyrics ~♫♫♫

Beautiful girls, all over the world
Let them keep chasin
You know they should be wastin
All their time on you baby, all on you baby
They might say hi, if you dont say hey
Theres no need to worry
You know they will stay
Spendin time on you baby, all on you baby (yeah)

Too many times he showed you
Whats in his mind, never came through
I know you're hurtin and I feel you
See the tears in eyes, when you know you shouldnt cry
Cause he wouldnt for you
I wanna be the one to show you
Just what you need, let me mold you
I wanna be the one youre close to
You are such a find
Thats why I keep you by my side and I tell you

Beautiful girls, all over the world
Let them keep chasin
You know they should be wastin
All their time on you baby, all on you baby
They might say hi, if you dont say hey
Theres no need to worry
You know they will stay
Spendin time on you baby, all on you baby (yeah)

See I dont know why you out here trippin girl
Yeah there are beautiful girls all around the world
But none can compare to the way that you be
Do you an ear plug, I dont think you can hear me
You saying that Im wasting my time
But how is that true, when Im happy youre mine?
You is thinking too much, when I go around the world
Stop assuming that Im getting with a lot of different girls
Cause Im not boo, so true its a fact
I am loyal to you, but its trust you lack
Yeah they would say hi, but I wont say it back
Cause I have you in mind starting with one track
Its a one-track mind that is only for you
A lot of groupies tryda holla, but they got nothing on you
Trust the words that Im speaking out truthfully
Girl its just you and me always till eternity (yeah yeah)

Beautiful girls, all over the world
Let them keep chasin
You know they should be wastin
All their time on you baby, all on you baby
They might say hi, if you dont say hey
Theres no need to worry
You know they will stay
Spendin time on you baby, all on you baby (yeah)

You can go to London, go to Paris, even way down in Tokyo
Down to Georgia to New Orleans, theyre the same everywhere you go
Just like that they never go
Like an Xbox 360 yo
If you didnt know well now you know, know know

Beautiful girls, all over the world
Let them keep chasin
You know they should be wastin
All their time on you baby, all on you baby
They might say hi, if you dont say hey
Theres no need to worry
You know they will stay
Spendin time on you baby, all on you baby (yeah)

Its like that, you know
A wise girl kisses, but doesnt love
She always listens, but doesnt trust
And shes ready to leave him in the dust

And another version which I like the meaningful lyrics... Great job to the song writter...
(Original video - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UMVFsb41nWA)
P.S: embedded disabled >.<

Lyrics ~♫♫♫

I've had a lot of girls in the past but we never made it,
Heartaches to heartbreaks, i need a first aid kit,
Patience is a virtue, true, so i waited,
Then i met you and we sparked like Raiden,
Sharp like Jason, heart's not vacant,
Cuz i got a dime that'll start to make sense (cents)
And that's you, no fake like matrix,
They aint got nothing on, you like naked,
So let me be your blanket and cover you,
I aint like these other clowns, i dont wanna juggle you,
And i aint trying to bug-a-boo, but you're like my destiny, (child)
No playboy bunny, just you for my energy,
Yeah, and you as the centerpiece,
Straight up no zig zags like the letter Z,
Time for settling, no backpedalling
Cuz we run smooth like the sound of this melody

When i seen her, i was nervous
Tried speakin but cut off like a phone service
I pictured me with her and its perfect
Her beauty is contagious and i was allergic
This started when i first met her
Love at first sight so i walk again past her
To make sure, should i skim the book faster
But i dont want to miss a thang in this chapter
End of story baby your now mine
All the money in the world couldnt buy how we spend time
Your the first and the end of the line
Got me feelin so high like im on cloud nine
Your the one who truly knows me
If a bad hand was dealt you wouldnt fold me
Play it out real slowly
i knew the meanin of love but youre the one that showed me

Baby ure the only one ain't no other ones,
Racing for my heart? Well baby ure the one that won,
Them other girls got nothing on you,
Cuz ur heart is wat I carry(Carey) something like drew,
Haha u kno what i mean,
Between me and you, they can't intervene,
We tight and close u can call it skinny jeans,
Me and u together, now that's a perfect team

I'm, hungry for your love but it seems
none of these girls got your taste/
I hada let us fall, heartbreak earthquake
Now im just hopin your heart cirles back to my shape
See they got nothin on you, so you mean somethin
You still got my heart beatin like its fist pumpin
That means you got it on lock, cuffed up, cardio arrest
Swizz beat the beat, you the one , no next

Till then...

(Still in love to this song ~♫♫♫~)

开学前言

2010-06-27T01:10:00.002+08:00

明天就要开学了
不知道到底事件开心还是悲伤的事
总觉得好像会有好多愿意的和不愿意的
会从明天开始作为起点
可能是之前发生很多太突然的
当然我希望到达终点会是顺顺利利

看了时间表后
给我的只有一个感觉 - 有没有搞错!!! >.<"
竟然有十多个科目
而且还有很多归类为"干"的科目
惨咯... 想我读到干掉咩...
Haizzz... 考试读死我咯...
还有好几堂课是上到7pm或更迟
看来我该收回我之前说的话了
看来我这次在班上睡觉的次数会比以前的多好几倍了
Haizzz... 还想改过自新的看来只有改到变本加厉
算了吧只好见步行步
任达华也曾说过 "一步佳, 一步难"
不要走到步步都难就可以了 >.<"

不知道为什么
心里有种无可理解被压的感觉
又有少许忧愁少许绝望少许担心
还有很多很多无可理解的感觉
到底是什么来的知道答案的可以告诉我吗?
奇怪的是我家的"Lady Gaga"
会在我有这感觉的时候来安慰我
好像理解我的感受
可惜的是它不会讲人话
不然它可以来开导我了

这个假期给了我一个人静思的机会
有没有收获我自己也不懂
是时候收拾心情了
回到这个循环的起点
一切从头开始

视若无睹

2010-06-16T14:47:00.002+08:00

最近觉得有点无助

大概三四个月前
突然发现身边的亲人
竟然"穿回我以前穿过的烂鞋"
当时的我非常犹豫
到底要插手好呢?
还是不要插手好呢?
最后我选择了视若无睹
我觉得我没有资格去插手
因为这件事我也曾经做过
但是这位亲人竟然不会低调的处理
最后事情好像搞砸了
现在才来插手也太迟了

难道我现在只能继续视若无睹吗?
视若无睹是不是一个好的解决问题的方法呢?

~下雨天了，这么办??? (>.<) (>.<) (>.<)~

未来。过去

2010-06-07T00:26:00.004+08:00

最近我的亲朋好友们
有的毕业Degree了
也有毕业Master的
也有毕业不久后很快就开始工作的
也有好多都出国了

他们也开始迈向着他们的未来了
看来我是时候找出
这拖了5年问题的答案
一直活在犹豫的我
以为进了大学就会找到答案
但还是一样没有分别
每次找答案时总是会遇到死路
有时候找到生路的答案但并不是我要的完美答案
难道世上真的没有完美的未来吗?
看来我只好面对这事实罢了。。。。。。。。。。。。

昨晚我发了一个梦
梦见非常熟悉的地方
那充满回忆的地方
虽然是熟悉但我已经很久很久很久很久没有去了
今天刚好有经过那儿
我想既然经过过去看看也不妨吧
那儿跟梦境的也没什么分别
过了那么久变化也只是那么一点点
我过去那儿坐下来
好多好多画面从回忆里飘出来
喜怒哀乐的甜酸苦辣的
看来我下次来的机会也不会很大了
但我希望他能保持现在的状态
让我下次来时
还能观赏这喜怒哀乐的甜酸苦辣的电影。。。。。。

我想要的...

2010-05-29T20:43:00.009+08:00

我想要的
是在一个干净的海边坐在那沙滩上
听着那海浪声一朵朵的飘上沙滩
看着那晚上的天空
数下那闪闪无数的星星
看着那月亮越过那漆黑天空
一直到日出出现

我想要的
是在一个有宽阔草原的花园
躺在那草地上
看着那晚上的天空
等待流星雨的出现
看着那流星一个一个越过那漆黑天空
许下心愿希望每一个都会实现

我想要的
是一个能看出人心想什么的眼镜
戴上后可以让我分辨真实假象
有了这个眼镜
我就可以做对的选择走出对的道路
做每个不会有错误的选择
这样那些不希望发生的事就不会出现

我想要的
原来都是那些不可能会发生的事
唯有可能发生在梦中
现在就只好让我沉睡在梦中
醒过来后一切就会消失
那是就该面对现实了不能胡思乱想了

感觉像五分钟的三秒

2010-05-22T01:11:00.003+08:00

每当我在马路驾驶时
看见每辆有BKA的车牌
我都会想起那晚发生的事
那遗憾的晚上

从那天起
我们就像那从不认识的陌生人
就算我看你一眼或对你打招呼
你还是一样当我是透明
和你朋友面对时和以往不一样了
让我有种千古罪人的感觉
其实我只是气你一天而已而你却...
或许现在这样对我们可能才是最好

今天拿成绩的路途中
在那走廊我再次遇见你而且是面对面
不知不觉我给了你一个笑容
让我出乎意料的是你也给了我一个笑容
刚开始我是开心的以为你开始不再当我是陌生人
但是想想下你给的笑容
看起来有点勉强有点敷衍
这只是对我来说而已
事实是怎样只有你最清楚
但我希望你给的那笑容是真诚的
虽然对你来说这可能只是短短的三秒
但对我来说经过的是五分钟

我常常在想
到底分辨真实和假象的困难
本来就是人类的天生还是经验不足
可能我只是个住在井底的小青蛙
还没见识外面世界的大大小小
我好想要有一个能分辨真实假象的眼镜
让我看透真实假象让我走出真确的下一步

哈哈讲讲拿成绩
看见好友们都及格过关
应该啦我们BM108 全部都及格
一起进入第五个学期
再次破了没人不及格的记录
哈哈是蛮值得庆祝的啦 xD
还有一年就毕业咯时间过得真快
现在可以真正享受假期了
是时候实现那些假期计划咯~~ =)

人生第一次的日本餐

2010-05-17T22:36:00.003+08:00

日本餐我对它一点好感都没有
看着那生生腥腥的鱼片
冷冷的一点都不开胃
吃下去必定"落晒"
所以我从来都不会去吃

不知道为什么不知道我哪来的勇气
在这个周末竟然大胆的去尝试了
我们就在那出名平，靓，正的三味寿司店里
在出门前还吃了三文治
怕去到不知道要吃什么 >.<

到了那儿看着那些旋转的寿司
大概每个寿司都有生鱼片
心想糟了难道我真的要吃那些折磨肚子的食物吗
不管了先打开菜单看看可能还有希望
还好他们有些熟的食物
虽然是熟的但我印象的日本菜的酱料
好想有一种奇怪的味道
但不管了肚子又饿了奇怪就奇怪啦
能医饱肚子就好了
So 我就叫了一个叫做Ebidon的饭
饭上有几片Tempura和蛋看起来蛮开胃的
真没想到尝试了一口就让我难以忘记
好想再吃多一碗但是吃了那一碗就饱了
可是到现在那味道还是在我口中残留着
真的很夸张咯就这样我对日本餐有好感了

人生就是这样
要进步的话就要大胆地走出那第一步
虽然失败的可能性会大
但失中一定会有得得到的是经验
累积了经验人才会进步
如果只是坐在那儿等待成功会从天山会掉下来的话
那你就慢慢等吧等到你死了都不会出现

最近的我还是继续的"旅行"
有去吃糖水的店也有去喝苦茶的店
去了照相馆很多次了也翻开了好多本相簿

说到真正的旅行
明天我会和好友到马六甲去
而且是亲手亲脚驾车去
也是人生第一次
好玩不好玩我已不在乎了
我只希望的是大家平安
希望一切一路顺风一路平安

So~~~ 祝我们会一路顺风，一路平安吧~~~

Quick Updates

2010-04-26T13:28:00.003+08:00

There's so much to tell...
Too bad time running out (at the moment)...
So I leave it for next time...

Anyway just a little quick updates here for what had done this week...
Yea mostly are: STUDY STUDY and STUDY like no others...
Finals is coming like a TORNADO... Fast and Furious
1 MORE WEEK to EOS!!! and I still got 3 more subjects to go...
Going INSANE at any moment... >.<

Ok other than studies... I did something that I almost giving up doing it...
Which is drinking milk... YEA!! Drinking milk...
For a lactose intolerance person like me... Drinking milk is a WHOA WHOA thing...
And I like to drink milk for your information...
Well out of a sudden the milk in my fridge is calling me to drink it everytime I open the fridge...
And at a moment I cant resist it and I just drink it...
And the results is... NO DIARRHOEA!! Unbelievable...
So which means I can DRINK MILK at anytime I want...
Kinda think bout it if this happens 10 years ago... many things can change...

Last but not least to share... There's one STRANGE thing happen last night...
I had bout 5 - 6 dreams in a shot during yesterday sleep...
The details are not clear after woke up... But roughly still can remember some...
And these dreams is like "half-showing dramas" where it ends without telling the ending...
Somehow I feel like it could be precognition to what happen soon... Haha maybe is just me thinking too much...

Oh well, thats all at the moment... Back to study ler... Good Luck to ALL having EOS next week!! May all the BM108 and the other batchmates pass this semester without anyone leaving us anymore...

Buena Suerte!!! =D

心境旅行

2010-03-27T23:52:00.005+08:00

最近经历的体会的领悟的
实在是太多太多太多
就算有一百个人的手指都数不完

最近去旅行都去到较远的地方
旅行时碰巧遇见三年前的知己
他带我到一间照相馆里
拿出他收藏的记忆相簿
他说在他的相簿里有我一直寻找的答案
我用了两个傻眼看着他
但他眯着眼带了个微笑告诉我
慢慢去寻找吧你一定找得到
虽经我七七四十九天的闭关观察分析验“片”解剖
但我找到的只有一点“头水”而已
他过后恭喜了我然后告诉我
把它带回去吧然后每天带着它
用在每一天的生活里说不定答案会自己走出来呢
用了几个星期后虽说它是有帮了我不少的忙
不管大大或小小事情它都帮我处理了
但我还是觉得它并不是我要的答案
看来我下次还得去到更远的地方旅行了
希望能遇见更多“多年不见的知己” 帮我找到答案

最近都在不恰当的时候做不恰当的事
说的一些话做的一些事都没经过大脑
若我是有哪里得罪了非常非常抱歉!!!
我以后会说话处事会更加小心的 >.<

哈哈最近我自创自编了一个红豆水的故事
关于这个红豆水的故事
上集是甜蜜蜜的
突然觉得有下集
但灵感带来的下集好像不是那么甜了
试想想对喝红豆水的确是能带来那甜的感觉
但是你能每时每刻的享受这甜的红豆水吗
给你一碗红豆水喝完了可以再喝多一碗
但总有一天那汤锅里的红豆水会被喝完
喝完了若想再喝是不是又要重新再煲过呢
哈哈这只是突然一时触灵的下集大纲而已啦
我自创自编的故事只能有甜的感觉而已
到底《红豆水 2》的情节是怎样的呢
我们拭目以待吧！

这几天早上在用早膳时
茶餐厅出现了一对大概六七丈的老夫妻
虽然他们年纪是有点大了
但他们还是很恩爱的享受他们的早膳
他们来回时都是牵着手非常亲密
他们每天吃的都是一样的早膳
就是烧面包和两杯鸳鸯
那面包是切成一半的
但他们并不是就这样拿来吃
他们会把那半个面包撕成小小片(可能是少了些牙齿吧 xD)
然后互相你喂我我喂你的
非常恩爱我看着他们吃我喝咖啡都能喝到甜味

看着他们我在想我五十年后是不是也能这样呢
和我的老婆能那么恩爱白头偕老呢
要做到这样那要看月老所恩赐的缘分我们能珍惜到什么程度
哈哈说到缘分我突然想起小学时玩那个叫作“名字造词”的游戏
就是以别人的名字来造一个词
例如有个人他名叫杰伦造的词可以是：“杰出的伦语”
那我以前是被造成：“伟大的缘分”
难道我的缘分是“缘”如其名是伟大的吗
哈哈未来的事我看不到但若真的“缘”如其名
我一定会好好珍惜的
希望真的能像那老夫妻一样到老还可以那么恩爱 ♥♥♥~~

Miracle (奇迹)

2010-03-19T22:53:00.003+08:00

奇迹
就是那些所谓不可能在平常会发生
那些所谓不平凡的事情

既然奇迹是平常不会发生是不平凡的
也就是说它只不过是个童话故事是个幻觉
既然它不会出现
与其相信它不如面对现实世界
与其奢望它不如自己解决问题
这就是不相信奇迹的人的想法~~

但是还是有些人选择相信它~~
他们认为这世上有无数的可能性
相信梦想成真的可能性
相信奢望成真的可能性
相信在这个日新月异的社会
什么事都有可能发生

如果你问我是哪个
我是个相信奇迹的人
并不是我非常期待它的出现来解决我的问题
是因为我与它碰面好几次了
所以相信奇迹不是天真

对我来说
奇迹就像彩虹
彩虹是雨后遭阳光射到空气水滴的现象
但是是不是每一次与后会有彩虹呢？
不是叻。。。
彩虹可以说要集合天时地利人和
才会有它的出现

奇迹也是一样
它是一直在我们身边
只不过它的出现也要看天时地利人和
不相信奇迹的人
通常都是因为在他们渴望奇迹出现的时候
奇迹没有出现
有时奇迹是有出现但出现得不恰当
例如当你非常无助时他没有出现
但在那些你有能力处理的事他就偏偏出现
试想想如果奇迹每次在你有难出现
人哪会从失败是站起来哪会从错误中学习
人就只会每天坐着等待奇迹从天上掉下来 =.=!!

其实奇迹是存在的
相信它并不是个错误
那些不相信奇迹的人
是不可能获得和创造奇迹
其实要获得奇迹是很简单的
只要不犹豫的去行动就可以了
有些人认为奇迹出现只不过是运气好而已
所谓的运气好就是行动的结果
只有去追求才能抓住那些不可能的机会
那些怀疑一切惧怕失败的人
是永远不可能创造出奇迹的

那场所谓“已结束”的仗
“乱党”像急流河水一样一直涌进来
（这块地有那么大的吸引力吗？>.<"）
虽然有好多的“乱党”消除了
但是还是消除不完
相信奇迹的我
总有一天全部所有“乱党”会被消除
那时就真的可以开香槟庆祝咯~~ ♫♫♫ xD

[(=] ♫~[××***等待彩虹的出现***××]~♫ [=)]

Incomplete Puzzle (不完整的拼图)

2010-03-14T00:42:00.003+08:00

一个完整的拼图
说的故事就只有一个而已

但一个不完整的拼图
藏着的故事是无数
有的让人喜笑颜开怒发冲冠
有的让人哀是如潮乐乐不忘

在人的性格上

固执的人会在意不完整的拼图
在意它的不完美
一定要想尽任何办法
都要把拼图拼成完整的图
把那拼图想展现的一个故事呈现出来
手段会有点狠但至少得到的是事实

随和的人不会介意拼图完不完整
能看出不完整的拼图虽然不完整
但还是有个小故事的存在
然看过的小故事就不会重看
也不会想把他们连接起来
看起来有点潇洒但永远都被假象捉弄

那场已结束的仗
经过我赶尽杀绝
我已成功地把所有“乱党”消除了
终于收拾完残局了打完仗了
(开香槟庆祝咯～～ ♫♫♫)

呵呵呵我也想得太天真了吧
还没呀!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

嗨......... (叹气)
真是一波未平一波又起
现在出现的问题往往超越了我掌握的范围内
解决问题的方法我还没找到
但是如果不快点解决我看来不及了
我们可能会放弃这真个"国家" 怎么办呢？

神啊救救我吧～～ ♫♫♫
请您指导我们下一步该怎么走
请保佑我们能保卫我们的"国家"
不再让外来因素侵犯

Hermit Crab (寄居蟹)

2010-03-07T00:07:00.006+08:00

最近有种像“寄居蟹”的感觉
这“空螺壳”居住了个天真又陌生的“蟹”
就像被个小孩的灵魂“鬼上身”
虽然觉得不是自己在控制自己的身体觉得有点不自在
但至少少了些烦恼不须想那么多
难怪成人常说：“若能永远不用长大多好”
虽说不想长大能不用那么烦恼
但人还是会成长经过人生的生老病死
还是面对现实比较好 =D

我以为那场仗已结束了就等于没事了
原来还有很多残局要收拾
还有些“乱党”趁机造反
看来必须解决了这些乱党才算打完仗
应该不会很困难吧
只要赶尽杀绝下手重多ditdit 狠多ditdit
问题就会解决了吧 XD

伤心的事就说到这吧
说点开心的

说到幸福他可以来自很多方向
例如食欲的幸福
这星期吃了很多美食
周二吃了鱼排和薯条配上很多的tartar sauce
幸福在于那浓浓的tartar sauce和鱼排薯条的搭配上
周四吃了奶油鸡饭
幸福在于那浓浓的奶油酱配上鸡丝和些咖喱叶
周五再次吃了好友烹饪的咕噜肉和意粉
开胃的黄梨番茄酱咕噜肉浓浓又超cheesy的carbonara意粉
回到家还有妈妈留的咕噜肉耶
明天还有自制肉骨茶
欧买尬~~~ 这些让人吃了超幸福超享受的美食
食欲幸福就是这么来的就是那么简单
但是享受食欲幸福后是要付出代价的
看来我得跑多几圈了消耗这些热量
虽然代价是要付出但一切都值得的

今周金言：有时太多的沟通会带来一些误会

so 最好是确认在对的时候，跟对的对象，在对的地点
结合天时地利人和了才沟通吧就一定会避免不该的误会发生
（aiyo 这么那么麻烦啊...）>.<"

Record Breaking

2010-02-27T01:42:00.003+08:00

这个星期可以说是我在2010年过得最开心的一个星期
当一个人把他身上所有的包袱放下时
那种冲上云霄，自由自在的感觉
难以词汇来形容

真开心因为那场仗已到一段落了
原来"24364 7826"是件非常困难的事情
要完全办到并不是普通人可以做到的事
能找回自己也是件好事
但人每天都在改变要找回以前的我是不可能的
能找回八成也算不错了
就算找到以前十成的自己
也不一定是好事
人类是不断的在成长不断地在进化
找到以前还是一尘不变的自己代表自己并没有比以前好
在这社会上是会被淘汰的

就如标题我在这星期里破了两个记录
第一个就是食量的记录
自从开始减肥到现在我晚餐的食量都是少的
就算是有亲戚朋友办自由餐
我最多最多也吃到第二round而已
但因受不住好友烹饪美食的引诱
我破了纪录吃了第三round
要不是那个carbonara sauce没有了
我应该会吃到第四或第五round吧 xD

第二个是情绪的记录
今天在短短的一个小时半里
我竟然哭了有五六次吧
我自己也不敢相信 >.<"
为何？我当时再看超级星光大道
那集的主题是关于每个参赛者的写真
每个参赛者都有它们各自喜怒哀乐的故事
但多数的是哀惨悲伤和感动人心的故事
不管是在爱情，亲情上
当时的我就好像一个孤魂野鬼
可以附上那些参赛者的身上
然后感触他们的故事
就好像自己有亲身体验过
有些还可以忍着泪水但有些我怎么忍泪还是留下了
但这被感动哭过的感觉蛮不错的
可以把之前想哭但又哭不出来的感觉一次过哭出来
心是舒服了很多

人类是每一天都在变每一天都在进化
如果能做到比昨天好当然是件好事
生活是应该每天开心的
做好自己本分问心无愧
人生就会完美无缺有喜没有悲

Journey to the inner world of Me

2010-02-05T21:46:00.003+08:00

There is a chinese proverb sounds like this: 三岁定八十...

Which means a person's personalities will be projected at the age of 3...

Well I kinda support this proverb...

I don't know how's my personalities when I'm 3...

Maybe I'm (the current me) like that when 3 years old...

The problem is actually I don't like my personalities...

Don't ask me why... I just don't like it...

People always say "Just be yourself"... "Just be yourself"...

Is not that I don't like to be myself...

But being myself is not as easy as you thought...

Yea some people may think: Hahaha... Nonsense... How difficult can it be to be yourself...

Well, I guess maybe is because I still don't understand me myself yet...

Sound silly right? After living 20 years still being lost in the inner world of me...

Maybe is because last time I don't really care what kind of person I am...

Which lead to the "Lost Me" now...

Haiz I can only blame myself then (>.<")...

Well recently I'm trying to change this "one side" of me...

But I found is not easy... In fact is super duper difficult...

Much difficult than making the sky to fall...

Well this brings another proverb into my situation: 江山易改, 本性难移

Which means to change an empire is even much easier to change a personalities...

Which i think is very true and I'm 100% supporting this...

Well the "not giving up" side of me is trying very very hard everyday...

Everyday going a "Journey to the inner world of ME"...

Try to change this unwanted personality...

I guess "be myself" will not be that "hazardous" if I manage to change it...

I believe I can do it... What I need is time...

As long as I believe I can do it, I will be able to do so...

Till then,

P.S: After you read this post, you may think that I maybe thinking I'm crazy or having multiple personalities disorder... I can tell you I'm fine and normal... I'm just blogging out my thoughts... Which is a normal thing right? xD So don't think so much after reading it... TY!!

Time Traveling

2010-01-29T22:31:00.003+08:00

Time traveling... Literally it means traveling in the time tunnel...

Something that will only appear in fiction...

But come and think about it...

Isn't it great if you can travel to the past or future???

You can undo the all the mistakes you done...

Which is what I wanted all these time...

Since the mistake I made was just too much... Unforgiven... >.<

But this is not happening in real life...

There must be a reason why it doesn't exist...

Come and think about it...

What if everyone is time traveling...

Imagine what will happen to the time line...

It will go chaotic!!!

If we think another direction...

If everyone is undoing the mistake they made...

Will they even learn from mistakes????

NO!!! THEY WON"T!!!

Everytime they did a mistake, they can just undo it...

Every mistakes has a lesson that hidden in it...

If you can't see the lesson, the mistake will happen again...

Until you see the lesson in it...

There is no such thing as "I never done any mistake before"...

Sometimes the moment you are born, Who knows you could be a "mistake"...

Anything is possible in this world...

So next time if you all did mistakes...

Please look for the lesson in it...

Don't be like me... Which fooled by these mistakes...

Until the moment I enter coffin...

Or maybe i should say until my soul's existence disappear from this world...

Till then...

Making Decisions...

2010-01-24T12:16:00.002+08:00

A friend asked: If you follow the instinct, where will it ends?

I answered: It will brings us to no end...

Well, if this apply to me on highways and road literally...

Yea it will really bring me to no end (for a road blind like me >.<)...

But if this apply to the path in my life...

Hmmm I would say... I don't know how to answer...

Well I will use my instinct only when I'm lost...

Not always... Sometimes I let God to decide for me - flip a coin (silly right >.<)...

Recently I didn't flip anymore cause the result is always not the one I wanted...

I prefer long and deep thinking with the "inner me"...

But again recently the answer that "inner me" gave me is always wrong too...

And it keeps causing me troubles... One and another...

Like a endless chain reaction...

But sometimes following instinct is not wrong though...

Other than lost, usually people use instinct when the decision that they need make is in 50:50 ratio...

Meaning the consequences of both choices is equal...

But honestly telling you, this is wrong...

Based on my experiences...

There is no such thing as equal consequences...

They must be a slight different between choices...

And don't think that this slight different means nothing...

It will cause big big big trouble if you make the wrong choice...

Just like a small atomic bomb that blast out half of Japan during World War II...

So next time when you want to make decision...

Please do consider follow your instinct...

But with deep thinking of the consequences...

Find out the slight different and weigh the decision again...

Oh to my friend who ask that question...

HAPPY BELATED 22nd BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!!!

Sorry if I didn't bring "rainbow" to your day...

Sorry if I did anything wrong...

AND ALSO THANK YOU!!!

Cause your question make me think more about my life...

You help me discover more about myself...

And FINALLY ENJOY YOUR DAY!!! =D

Till then,

U g L y T r U t H

2010-01-20T19:08:00.003+08:00

Truth sometimes can be hurtful...

Maybe not sometimes... I should say ALWAYS...

Knowing the truth in a way is good...

Where you are clear and understand the whole picture...

Eliminate all the confusions and misunderstandings...

Sometimes not knowing the truth is a good thing too...

At least you don't need to face the ugly truth...

Living around with lies and fakes...

At least it wasn't that hurtful...

Everything is still the same...

To a "chameleon" like me...

I thought I always able to "camouflage" to any situation...

But in the current incident happen...

I think I'm not like it anymore...

Because I felt into this "trap"...

With thorns... constrictions... poisons... burns... freezes...

Many many many torturing stuffs...

Well at the beginning I thought I can "camouflage"...

At least prevent from letting predators to catch me...

But now... There is no point to do so...

This "trap" is torturing me...

I thought that if I could escape a "trap" from another...

But it keep appearing and I cant avoid it...

In the end I felt again...

And the pain comes again...

The cycles go round and round again...

With no ends...

I can't stand it anymore...

I seriously can't...

The more I evade... The more it comes...

What can I do????

Suffer the pain until the moment I go into coffin???

I don't think I'm tough enough...

Let the "trap" kill me and live with another life???

But I haven't even try to defeat it... I can't die yet... >.<

Or maybe... Lets put it this way...

I'm just a coward that don't dare to fight it...

How??? What can I do???

Who knows... Maybe I really will die soon...

Till then...

Against will...

2010-01-14T15:31:00.002+08:00

Ever feel the eager of wanted to do something but cant do it???

Because everytime when you think of the consequences...

It brings disasters...

Every steps you take...

Every decisions yo make...

Eventually will turn into "chain reaction"...

It will drag many people into troubles...

But if you do nothing...

It remains peacefully to others...

But not to yourself...

Because within you yourself...

The "chain reaction" already begins...

So the solution is...

Either being selfish and drag all the innocence into the "black hole"...

And let them hate you for the rest of your life...

Or not to do anything...

Let the "Black hole" swallow yourself...

And everyone can live happily and peacefully...

So which path would you choose???

I had already made the decision long ago...

Just that Im now on the way back to the beginning and choose again...

Or maybe I should say Im lost in this journey...

Im looking a compass that will lead me to the correct path...

But is not that easy...

Still searching it...

Hopefully I can find it as soon as possible...

Before the "Black hole" swallow me...

Till then~~

New Feelings~~

2010-01-04T00:34:00.002+08:00

In this brand new year of 2010...

New feelings arrive together...

This time it has more effect...

Or should I say it gets more "serious"?

Everyday when i woke up I will have about 5 mins of relieve...

After that it comes...

And remain in my heart till the moment I arrive "LalaLand"...

Feel like something possess in my body...

Brings comfort away from my body...

Should I get use to it and follow what "It" says??

Or should I face it to make "It" follow what I say??

I guess is beyond my ability to control it...

What can I do?? What can I do??

Im still looking for answers...

When will solutions come? When??? When???

I guess no one knows...

Maybe Im always the weak one...

Who fated to be controlled by strong ones...

Well I guess what I can do is to wait until miracles appear...

Wait for "the Time for Miracles"...

May "You" come soon... May "It" go soon...

Till then,

"Unable to understand" Emotion

2009-12-26T01:42:00.003+08:00

Feelings feelings feelings... Something that every human own...

Happy... Sad... Angry... Confuse...

These are basic feelings...

But somehow there's a feeling...

I don't know what it called...

Worry? Doesn't seems 100% like it...

Disappointed? A little bit of it...

Sad? Not so sure about it...

What does it call?

Even I myself don't understand...

I guess nobody understand it...

It keeps give me heartache...

It keeps make me feel down...

It keeps make me feel useless...

It keeps bothering me...

Why is it? Why is it?? Why is it???

I think nobody can answer this question...

Since me myself can't even find the answer...

Maybe... Maybe...

Maybe is "the chameleon" inside of me...

Changing colors... Camouflaging...

If this feelings bring me to the correct path...

I don't mind having it...

Hopefully it guide me to the right journey which is fated...

Hopefully i can find the solution...

Hopefully i can understand it...

Hopefully i can control it...

Till then...

非常感人的爱情故事。。。

2009-11-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

一天女孩過生日，男孩子在她生日的聚會上送了她一只可愛的毛毛熊，在各種生日禮物中，這根本算不上是禮物．女孩有些生氣，也許更多的是憤怒，沒想到自己男朋友這麼小氣，今天是她的生日，還來了這麼多朋友．去年男孩在她生日的時候送了她一把很名貴的藏刀，男孩發誓說，如果有一天他背叛了女孩，女孩可以用刀劃破他的胸膛．今年，兩個人一直在討論兩個人的未來，這麼多朋友都來為女孩慶祝生日，是男孩說在生日哪天會給女孩一個終生難忘的禮物．結果似乎一切都出乎大家的以外，當然主要是女孩！面對女孩憤怒的眼神，男孩只是壞壞的笑，這份禮物真的讓女孩終生難忘．女孩在聚會中喝了很多酒，而男孩只是在旁邊静静的喝着可樂．聚會結束，他們要回到自己的小家，上了公路，女生一直很憤怒，一直在埋怨，車的後排座放了很多名貴的禮物，當然還有那只毛毛熊.女生開始抱怨男孩不愛她，不珍惜他們的愛，男孩只是静静的開着車，什麼也沒有說，偶然會有一絲笑在臉上．酒精在衝動的驅使下發作了．女孩吐了，男孩靠邊停了車，女孩大發脾氣，指責男孩給了她這樣一個不愉快的生日，說了一些很傷感情的事情，男孩一直無語，只是一只手拿着紙巾，一只手拿着礦泉水．女孩突然跑到了公路中間，男孩沒有拉住她，兩個人就這樣在公路上拉扯着．突然，一輛飛馳的快車直奔兩個人行駛過來，男孩想都沒想的扔掉了手中的東西推開了女孩，女孩的頭重重的摔到了地上，等她蘇醒的時候，她已經躺在了醫院，頭上綁着繃帶．那輛飛速行駛汽車的司機，証明是酒後駕車．男孩被撞出了15米，當救護車到的時候，他嘴裡一邊吐着血一直說着〃别管我，看我女朋友怎麼樣？〃到了醫院，男孩已經去了另一個世界，他最後的一話是毛毛熊，毛毛熊在他的要求下，被醫護人員帶上了救護車，他在這個世界上最後的一段路，就是這只小熊一直陪着他．女孩得知男孩離去的消息，一直在哭，哭的昏过去了好幾次．一個有心的護士把小熊送到了她的枕邊．女孩再一次從昏厥中醒來，看着小熊上邊有着男孩的血，似乎有着男孩的體温，她緊緊的把它抱在了胸前，輕輕的摸着它．突然摸一件很硬的東西，女孩從小熊的口袋裡摸出了一件東西，一個戒指盒，裡面有一隻漂亮的鑽石戒指，女孩看到這一切，切底崩潰了．她拼命的哭，用力的撕着自己的頭髮和頭上的繃带，但是一切似乎都没有意義了．女孩去了停屍間，那是的男孩身上的血跡已經被擦干，他干干净净的，安詳的躺在那裡，嘴角還是有着一絲壞壞的笑，女孩用手摸着男孩的頭，淚水從眼角劃落，她不想哭出聲，因為男孩不喜歡她哭．女孩第二天就出院了，回到了他們曾經愛的港灣．打開房門，她被眼前的一切嚇呆了，房間裡滿是玫瑰，桌子上有一個大大的蛋糕，旁邊的一個保温餐盒和一張卡片．打開餐盒裡面是她最愛喝的湯，打開卡片裡面寫着：嫁给我，你一輩子都不會後悔，你一輩子都會感覺温暖，我會一輩子讓你幸福，我會一直守侯在你的身邊，我會每天叫你起床，為你做你喜歡的早餐，送你上班,時刻惦記你，随時給你電話和信息，不讓孤獨的感覺伴隨你一時一刻,晚上我會接你下班，為你做晚飯，晚上讓你在我的懷中睡去後再静静睡去．家裡事情你做主，但是家務還是我來吧，我身體比較好點．如果應酬，我會在11點前回家，如果出差我會把你這幾天食物準備好，當然還有你愛吃的零食．其實愛情就是簡簡單單兩個人的幸福，我們的幸福才剛剛開始，希望……女孩再也看不下去了，她看到了房間裡仿佛滿使他們的歡聲笑語，滿是他們的蜜語甜言，往日的情景一下子，涌入了她的心頭，她在自責，在懊悔，在埋怨…… 想着到底是誰背叛了那曾經美好的東西．曾經的幸福這個時候變的尖銳，曾經的歡笑這個時候變的灰色．男孩火化的那天女孩沒有去，女孩一個人静静的呆在他們愛的港灣，躺在他們經常做愛的床上，看着他們出去旅游时的錄像，輕輕的用去年生日哪天男孩送他那把藏刀割開了自己的手腕…… 窗頭放着一張卡片：親愛的我來了，沒有你的日子我好難過．是我錯了，你走的這幾天，我一直在回味我們在一起的日子，你的體温你的氣味你的壞笑和你做的飯，你是個騙子你說過一生守護我的，沒有你，一個人睡覺好冷的，沒有你做飯我肚子好餓，沒有你在身邊我好孤單，你慢點走，我來了，雖然你沒有實現你的承諾，但是我還是真的愛你，壞蛋我來了，慢點走，在前面等我，我來了…… 戀愛中的朋友們。。好好珍惜吧。。也許這個世界沒有那麼完滿的愛．但是這個世界有着最愛你的人和你最愛的人．當最愛你的人和你最愛的人是一個人的時候，告訴你．你是幸福的，有些人往往是三角戀，也許你不懂我的愛．我想看了這篇日誌你應該明白點吧．

Thoughts...

2009-10-30T20:52:00.001+08:00

I realize this screaming pain...

Hearing loud in my brain...

But I'm going straight ahead with the scars...

Song of the day - Sand drawing

2009-10-28T12:01:00.003+08:00

A new lovely and addictive song by Jay Chou and Cindy... Enjoy~~

歌詞/LYRICS:
作曲:袁咏琳
作词:方文山
主唱:袁咏琳&周杰伦

午后的风摇晃枝桠抖落了盛夏
我对着蝉认真说话在对你牵挂
玩风琴就是爱瞎闹堆积着无暇
我跟着站在碧沙岸让你放不下

这风景如画 (让晚风恍惚幻化)
院子里画沙 (摇晃着画着情花)
等最美的晚霞等故事长大

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部(不?)会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀

挑上脸挑上花有你的记忆干燥成瓶中沙
傻傻的还想着你滴滴答答
擦美丽的指甲喝你泡的茶
原来幸福可以这么优雅

爱过你的风沙你的风沙我一样值得你爱
管他风怎么刮管雨又怎么下
回头过去原来 (别说傻)
回头不说一次 (值得吧)
我爱上这泪光问你会不会爱我

这种景如画 (让晚风恍惚幻化)
院子里画沙 (摇晃着画着情花)
等我们的童话等誓言落下

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部(不?)会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部(不?)会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀 (因为我爱你呀)

To-Do-List (Hoping)

2009-10-26T23:13:00.003+08:00

Sorry Sorry- Super Junior
Haru Haru- Big Bang
Lies- Big Bang
Last Farewell- Big Bang
Gara Gara Go- Big Bang

More to come...

Till then,
Steven

Kill Me!!!

2009-10-19T01:01:00.002+08:00

Someone pls juz use a gun and shoot my brain so that i can stop thinking all these "unnecessary" things...

Someone juz use a knife and stab my heart so that i wont feel pain when thinking all these "unnecessary" things...

28th September 2009

2009-09-27T12:05:00.009+08:00

28th September 2009, a very important day to everyone in BM108... coz it is the 1st class test of sem 3... and guess wat... it is NAT PROD. CLASS TEST!!!

OMG!!! by looking at the name ppl might say: alah, nat prod., kacang puteh je la... 8 lecture notes with average of 20 slides per lecture oni ma... but i can tell u this subject is equal to ALL THE HARRY POTTER'S BOOKS combine together... is not bout the thickness but is about the contents... those scientific name is like magical spells in the story of HARRY POTTER!!! Siao ah!!!! Helianthus Annuus, Aristolochia reticulata, Eucalyptus globulus... WALAO!!!

But if Harry Potter can memorize it im sure we can as well (i hope so XD)... Anyway i would like to wish all the BM108 batchmates (and others who r having test or exam tmr) GOOD LUCK YO EVERYONE!!! Lets "beat up this subject and live peacefully in future"... XD

These are the gifts to everyone who need it:-

Till then,

Stevia rebaudiana

"Left Men Right Women" 男左女右

2009-09-05T22:01:00.002+08:00

A song that I currently like it very much... "Left Men Right Women" by Leo Ku and Shirley Kwan

Lyrics:

關︰要接吻　吻感不會像最初
要細訴　聽多幾句便說餓
生日怎過　竟要問我
連那驚喜也懶得給我
講不過　便去躲

古︰我那個　要拖手至像拍拖
要每晚　報導那日我怎過
好像行差踏錯
關︰想識破
古︰從未學諒解體恤我
工作已拖垮我
關︰我疑心有幾多

古︰未說假說話　等於真有心
關︰定要知為何吸引　解心癮
古︰別敏感
關︰我緊
古︰放心
關︰有心
古︰總之不夠細心
關︰最難求安穩
古︰最怕講對白　似亂世佳人
關︰定要表白　肯為愛犧牲
古︰誰向左
關︰向右
古︰最後
關︰同行
合︰全被愛情收禁

古︰Woo
關︰我對鏡　看多幾眼便要催
古︰該怪誰
關︰與老友　喝得多晚未怕累
親近多些他卻睡去
無法偷偷進駐他心裡
彷彿火　害怕水

古︰送我禮　讚少一句便鬥嘴
染了髮　看漏眼是我不對
不斷纏擾下去
關︰很風趣
古︰還用事業跟她比較
逼我答出金句
關︰我疑心有幾多

REPEAT＊

古︰有些擔憂未想她知道
關︰人家也為你好
古︰維護自尊　扮演獨行俠都好
關︰你怕與女友比高

古︰oh　我只講責任　不懂講掛心
關︰定要知為何吸引　解心癮
古︰別敏感
關︰我緊
古︰放心
關︰有心
古︰碰撞擦出好感
關︰最難求專一
古︰間中一個人　也是對戀人
關︰定要表白　肯為愛犧牲
古︰誰向左
關︰向右
古︰最後
關︰同行
合︰全被愛情牽引

HaPpY BiRtHDaY MaLaYSiA~~

2009-08-30T20:09:00.007+08:00

Hey Hey... Is 8pm night and guess what... 4 more hours is the 52th birthday of Malaysia...

Well recently i found a nice song while listen to radio... is called "Satu Malaysia"... This song is features the AMP Allstars, with the voices of 15 AMP announcers from ERA, MY FM, hitz.fm, MIX fm, LiteFM, SINAR, XFM, THR Raaga and THR Gegar. My favorite DJs, JJ, Ean, and Phoebe are singing too... Well this song is so much muh better than other patriotic songs... Hope more of this kind of songs will be produce in future XP...

Heres the lyric:

1Malaysia - Rakyat Didahulukan, Pencapaian Diutamakan

Oh indahnya pabila
Kita bersama
Kau, aku, kita semua
Tiada bezanya
No matter whatever the challenge may be
We’ll face it together, the stronger we’ll be
*Tamil lyrics*
Ondraga seinthu, endrendrum vazhvom Santhosham neeranthaeram
(Together we come united as one, and live forever, Our happiness is permanent.)

Chorus
Satu Bangsa
Satu Suara
Satu Nada
Satu Irama
Bersama kita capai semua
Satu Malaysia

Rap
Satu Bangsa we united in music
Satu Irama united we stand
I feel the heart of my people when we struggle everyday to be the best that we can
We share the food that we eat, we share the words that we speak, I say what’s up? You say “apa cerita?”
You hungry bro?, jom makanlah!

Verse 2
We go up, never go down
We go up together
*Chinese lyrics*
Wo men shi yi ge Malaysia (we are one Malaysia)
Wo men yong yuan zai tong yi ge jia (we are one family)

Together we are strong
Tuan jie yi qi bu fen bi ci (unity with one vision)
Together we are strong
Xiang qin xiang ai wan zhong yi xin (we love each other and we share a vision)

Chorus

Bridge Sketch

Ean: Dude, JJ!
JJ: Yes Ean.
Ean: You know what part is this in the song,
JJ: Yes it’s the part where they go 1 key higher
Ean: Okay we’ll be quiet now okay
JJ: Coz we can sing but everyone else, 1 key higher!

Chorus 2x

Oh well so enjoy the holiday and again HaPpY BiRtHDaY MaLaYSiA!

Merdeka~ Merdeka~~ Merdeka~~~

Till then,

Orientation Korean dance video upload + Update

2009-08-02T10:58:00.008+08:00

Is been a while since the last time i update my blog... How am I? I would say Im turning in to a psycho soon... Assignments really kill ppl... Now we have at least 5 practicals a week... Which means 1 week we have to do 5 reports... O.O Plus the following week will have another 5 at least... As these go on i will really become a zombie panda...

But if look at the bright side, well it keeps me busy so that i dont have to think bout other things that bothering me... Thx u guys and gals (sendiri tau lar) for all the laughters and go crazy with me and makes all my worries gone... =D

Well, is been a busy week since the orientation week... Helping our juniors to achieve the best performance during the orientation week... I promise to upload our orientation performance video ( the 4 dances) to facebook... But i couldnt upload coz the stupid fb video uploader keep telling me the length of the video is above 2 min... =.=!! Oh well since i cant upload there so i upload here lo... (P.S. : The quality of the video wasnt really good, so Sorry for that >.<) These are what i promise... Enjoy our last performances on orientation... Is brilliant! =P

1st up: Nobody, Nobody but you by 5 sexy lady

Follow by another group of sexy and cute girls presenting: Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby~~

Next up: A group of cute girls presenting: Doo doo roo~ doo doo doo Kissing You Baby~

And last but not least our hip hop dance: Call Me~ Call Me~

Well after all the joy and fun comes buzy and worry... Treasure all the happy moments you had and turn them into wonderful memories... ^^V

Till then~

RhyThM oF ThE MoNtH - 誰說愛情不能作比較 (WHo SaiD LoVe CaNnOt Be CoMpaRed)

2009-07-14T23:10:00.004+08:00

空气中还飘着雨
在我挣扎的夜里
我们真的只能一起到这里
越走越远的距离
不是三言两语就可以解释我的无力
要分开的决定
我都努力努力不伤害你
只是他的用心你都看在眼里却不说一句

他很好他多好 (我没有刻意计较)
这些我并不需要知道 (只是他懂得我心跳)
离开你我勇气要多少（我难过有多少）
你不会知道（你不想知道）
他很好和我不同的好 (原谅我自私地拥抱)
你最后会明了
我要的美好爱情可以做比较 (会知道爱情不能做比较)

属于回忆的歌曲
没什么可以代替
其实这旋律真的可以延续
越走越远的距离
不是三言两语就可以解释我的无力
要分开的决定
我都努力努力不伤害你
只是他的用心你都看在眼里却不说一句（他的用心我都看在眼里我不说一句）

你拥有了全新的依靠
你会过得更好
我们承诺过彼此要继续幸福微笑

StaRt oF SoMeThiNg NeW

2009-07-06T17:33:00.003+08:00

Well today is the 1st day of semester 3... I expect it would be better since that fellow is not there... Well it doesnt seems better... No more distraction from his laptop... No more weird actions... But somehow i feel it became more quiet... Oh well, who cares... Life still have to go on...

So according to my timetable today suppose to have 2 overview (ya 2 oni =.=!) and i can go back at 12pm... but at 4pm there is a meeting for all the committee and OOs regarding bout H1N1... so i have to stay till 4pm for that meeting...

But in the end, today i oni have 1 overview due to some "technical problems" on that timetable... Supposingly i can go back at 10am (or not to come at all XD)... but the meeting is still on so i have to stay in uni till 4pm... which means i have 6 hrs of free period... =.=!! well at least all the things i planned are done...

So what are the things that is new in this semester? Well 1st thing of coz is absence of "the fellow" from the list of BM108... Next 3 of our beloved BM108 family members are not here too (add that fellow 4 ppl lar)... 3rd, since our class rep and treasurer is no longer there so we have to elect new one... Well the whole batch supported our "father of BM108" aka Tatt Jhong as our class rep... Where as for that treasurer... Erm I am the unfortunate one who hold that position... Haiz.... Oh well, since it is decided so why not give it a try the feeling of being a "good loan shark" (I noe is definitely not easy)... Then meet back friends, orientation preparation going on, practices, meetings, yadayadayada... Nothing much ler...

Well semester is a start of something new... BM108 will still continue to be a happy family... Life still have to go on with the "gile babi" timetable...

So, till then...

Perfect just doesnt exist in this world...

2009-07-04T18:00:00.003+08:00

Well the word "perfect" do exist in the dictionary... It means entirely without any flaws, defects, or shortcomings... To me, in reality, i dont think it exist at all... Ntg can be done entirely flawless...

On the 3rd of July, which is yesterday... The result for the re-seat exams was outed... Well i was nervous from morning onwards... Im so worried what happen if my friends cant pass the exam... They wont be joining us to proceed the following sem... We wont be having fun together... Many many things i worried... I want all of them to pass... I want to proceed to the next semester with them... >.<

The result was outed at 3pm... My nervousness had almost reach the peak... Is somehow like im the one who was waiting for the result... I so scare to ask them the result coz what if they fail... In the end somehow i manage to obtain the courage to ask them the result...

Well after asking here and there... I had found out their results... Well most of them pass... Which is a good news... But there are also some bad news... 4 of my batchmates failed the re-seat exam... Which now makes the number of students drop to 28...

Actually out of the 4 ppl... 3 of them makes up the bad news and 1 of them makes up a good news... Well the 3 ppl that makes up the bad news i dont think they deserve to fail... They really work very hard throughout the whole sem... I juz dun understand why they failed... Somemore 1 of the 3 ppl that failed the re-seat paper is a very good friend of mine who always help me in doing internal coursework during the semester... Such a hardworking person dont deserve to fail... HAIZZZZZ....

Well luckily there are good news too... That SELF-CLAIMED SMART ASS GEEK and ALWAYS-LIKE-TO-DO-STUPID-THINGS-JUZ-TO-GET-ATTENTION FELLOW is LEAVING US!!!!!! WOOOOOOHOOOOOO~~~ Is time to open champagne to celebrate... Well you may think im so bad but let me tell you, if you were in my situation you will feel the same also...

Well overall is a sad thing for losing such a good friend... I had learn that ntg is perfect in this world... I cant be so greedy to have everyone to pass the exam with me... I cant have all my wishes to come true... Life is just that realistic... Well i guess im ok right now... All these is just part of the life that we need to go through... Im going to work even harder for the coming semester... Im not going to lose to "Failure"... Im will be stronger to breakthrough all the obstacles that block my path of life...

Well, till then...

Unexplainable Feelings AGAIN!~~

2009-06-27T01:33:00.004+08:00

Yes... Again... Recently I keep having very unusual feelings...

These feelings are juz hard to explain in words...
Is like mixture of pains, worries, disappointments and many others feelings...
This feeling juz come out from no where...
I didnt do anything bad recently...
I dont have anything to worry (except my weight but thats not the problem)...
But why this feeling appears?
Why? Why? I really have no idea...

Is this an effect of "emotional malfunction"?
Coz is been a very long time I didnt feel emo...
So my emotional suddenly malfunction?
If thats the case where can I send it to "repair"?

Or this is a sign for asking me stop being Happy Go Lucky?
Telling me the life I choose isnt as easy as I thought?
Or asking me for not to be naive...
Telling me miracles juz dont exist and not to believe in it?
But life suppose to be happy isnt it?

Somehow this feeling is like giving me a warning...
Somehow my instinct told me that something very SERIOUS and very BAD which will
react like a chain reaction that will also affect others and the impact is also
very serious is going to happen soon...
Warning me to be prepared so that I wont lost at that time...

If this the case, I DONT WANT IT TO HAPPEN!!!
I want to be the Steven that is Happy Go Lucky...
I will still believe miracles do exist in this world...
I know the path I choose is not easy but I still believe I can do it...
Since I had breakthrough many "obstacles" that blocking my path...
I believe I can do it! Yea Steven is not a Weakling!

I hope this feeling will gone very soon...
Or I guess I have to face it and turn it into experience...
So next time when this feeling comes again I know how to handle...
I juz want to find the key to lock this feeling...
Hope I can do it...

The Most PATHETIC Trip That I Ever Had!

2009-06-19T00:23:00.032+08:00

Yes... This is definitely the most pathetic trip that i ever had... U will noe why after u guys read this post... But i cant say is totally pathetic... there are still some things that are memorable... but i can consider these memorable things are negligible... So i shall begin it by explaining the original plan and the plan after amendment...

Original plan: A 2 days 1 night trip to penang and pass by alor setar with 2 family (Ours and my father friend's family)

After amendment: A 2 days 1 night trip to alor setar (main reason: to see some "nice mural" in a museum, and visit some other place) and pass by penang with A BUNCH OF UNCLES & AUNTIES which makes up a total of 40 ppl

I WAS LIKE OOOOOMMMMMGGGGG!!!! WWWWWTTTTTHHHHH!!!! A such a nice plan had been turnover 720°=.=!!! Haiz... Well i thought that maybe the more the merrier and the trip shud be fun... but actually IT IS NOT!!! (well majority la) Haiz! So i guess lets begin it...

Once upon a time (well actually is on 7th of June XD)

i had to wake up at 5am bcoz the bus will be reaching sumwhere at puchong and we are departing there... so once we get into the bus, i had a very very bad feeling about this trip... well i thought is juz that im thinking too much... fine i juz leave those thoughts away and trying to enjoy this trip coz we are going to penang... wheeee~~

so we all depart around 7am from puchong... then we stop by at a dim sum shop at sri petaling to have our breakfast... erm i would say the dim sum sold here was TERRIBLE! It tasted like overnight food... so my parents order mostly pau coz pau is the only food that fresh from the steamer... If i were given a chance to rate this restaurant im will be giving a grade of -5... =.=!
ok fine... after we had that terrible breakfast then we continue our journey... well of coz i will be sleeping coz i woke up at 5am and i still very tired... so i slept wit my mp3...

then in the middle of the highway there is a terrible jam... i expected it to happen coz that day was a saturday plus is school holiday... so many ppl should be going hometown at that day... so our journey delayed... haiz siennya... so i didnt bother so much and continue to sleep... then out of a sudden i heard some auntie say is so boring in the bus and she suggested to SING KARAOKE IN THE BUS!!! I WAS LIKE OOOOOMMMMMGGGGG!!! THERE GOES MY PEACEFUL MOMENT... she even prepared HER MICROPHONE AND VCDs to the trip... plus those song that they sing are OLD SONGS!!! AS IN REALLY OLD CHINESE SONGS!!! is about TERESA TANG that era... (somewhere between the 50's and 70's) or some even older... YES! MY PATHETIC-NESS BEGINS HERE... and i can be so naive thinking that, "ala... if i on my mp3 volume louder i wont be able to listen to their songs and can continue to sleep lor" but their volume is 10x louder than mine... i on my mp3 volme till the max still cant listen to my songs... In my heart here is only one feeling: HHHHHAAAAAIIIIIIZZZZZZZ.............. Sei Lar i came to the wrong trip... is too late to regret... Then my bro said, haiz dun worry... the ppl are boring but the trip can be fun wat... I hope wat he said was true... So in the end i decided to look at the view outside the window and enjoy it... well is kinda bored so I decided to take some pic while travelling...

Abit wuliao that time... =.=

AYAM BAKAR nearby where we had our lunch somewhere at ipoh

Mummy~ =D

After we had our lunch i felt that there are something wrong with the tour guide... her face was as black as a wok... well i didnt bother so much... then some ppl that felt the same as me kinda like ask her wat happen... then she kinda like release her anger on us... blaming here and there... say wat her boss not happy lar... the journey keep delay lar... bla bla bla... well wat i felt was WTH!!! why keep blaming us... you are the one that didnt organise the trip properlly... your organisation got problem and u still blame on us... then afterthat there is one elder kinda like cool her and all of us down... i felt better after listen wat the elder said... so again i didnt bother it much and continue hoping there is hope...

Ok lets fast forward the journey to "almost reach penang"... supposing we shud be arriving around 3pm... after all those delays... here and there... we "almost reaching" penang at 5pm... =.=! how are we going to have fun in penang when we almost reaching at 5pm... coz around 11pm we are going to the hotel at alor setar d... haiz... now i started to believe that my bad feeling is coming true... HHHAAAAAIIIIIZZZZZZZ!!! i started to have the feeling of going back home... but everything is too late... again i remeber wat my bro told me and i still believe theres some hope in this trip... fine so i guess i have to follow the flow of the wind... i keep telling myself nvm nvm and nvm... so as we approaching penang, the tour guide told us the plan we going to have in penang... this is the plan:

1st we will be visiting some miracle stones that able to bless ppl (Ya right this is so bullshit), then we will be visiting the Kek Lok Si temple (ok i heard bout this place and got many nice view to take pic), then we will be having dinner and afterthat we will be having some very famous cendol that the famous comedian in Sg, Phua Chu Kang tasted before as desserted (cool~ i had a chance to taste penang food and that nice cendol, but the tour guide say u need to queue very long in order to buy this cendol...) then afterthat we can go shopping a while until night we have to continue our journey to the hotel in alor setar...

so after i heard what she said i felt: YESSS!!!! SO THERE REALLY HOPE IN THIS TRIP!!! Cant wait to go penang... Woohoo~~ so the journey continues~~

Penang Bridge~

Seaview took from the bridge~

Ok so when we reach penang according to the plan we will be visiting that stupid stone... so when reached, wat i saw is a small house that looks more like a temple with many banners... yes banners and all these banners are fulled with 4 numbers... guess wat, all these numbers are numbers that ppl who pray the stone and won 4D lottery... i was like SSSSSWWWWWWWTTTTTTT till the max!!!!!! =.=!!!!!! come to penang juz to visit this stupid stone which inscientifically bless ppl get rich by gambling 4D??? i thought others will hav the feeling too... but all the uncles and aunties are rushing to pray the stone... i was like omg... all these ppl are gamblers too... =.=!!! luckily my family are not coz we dun believe in all these bullshits and we dun buy 4D... so we juz see how the stone looks like and we go back to the bus... the stone is so ordinary... ntg special at all... =.= if that thing really can bless ppl this world wouldnt have poor ppl la... beggars are not existing in this world d... some ppl juz cant think rationally... =.= so the next destination was suppose to be the Kek Lok Si temple... it shud be fun... but the tour guide suddenly told us a bad news... she said the temple will close at 6pm... after those ppl pray that stone, the time is already 6.15pm... i was like =.=!! again... y cant we skip this stone visiting and straight go to the temple?????? then some ppl in then us complaint here and there... again that tour guide start to blame us again for delaying the journey... so it starts again the arguement and in the end the elder have to calm everyone down again... after the elder calm her down and she start to felt guilty and apologise to us... while she apologise she suddenly said she was BRAINLESS... at that moment i felt yea you are really brainless... the same auntie that suggest wanna sing k heard what she said and keep teasing the tour guide with this brainless thingy... I felt the auntie is too much... i thought it will be juz a while but she keep teasing her till the end of the trip and it is very annoying...

So the next we suppose to do is MAKAN! Woohoo~~ So i had one of the famous food in penang - Asam Laksa as my dinner with a bowl of ice kacang (coz i thought later we will be eating cendol so i didnt order)... overall the food was quite ok lar... not bad... after we had our dinner there are still some time and i went to the seaside nearby the restaurant to enjoy the view of the sea... (well actually there is ntg much to enjoy but the breeze over there is so chilling)

What i saw from the seaside, MUD!!! =.=! but there are some crabs walking around and mud skipper jumping around...

I oso met a cute schnauzer and a cute poodle over there... my bro took the pic of that 2 dogs...

So after times up, we suppose to go eat that famous cendol... then suddenly the tour guide said is too late d... We dont have the time to line up that long queue to buy that cendol... and we oso dun have time to go shopping... She said we had to go to the hotel now because it will take about 3 hours to reach there... I was like fine lor... I dun mind for not eatting that cendol and go for shopping... I juz wanna have a very nice and comfortable sleep after all the troubles... So the journey to Alor Setar begins and the journey to Penang juz ended like dat... SO PATHETIC!!!! I EXPECT MOOOOOOOOORRRRRRREEEEEEEE LOR!!! I felt tired after the dinner and have a nap in the bus...

when i wake from the nap and the time is already 9.30pm... The bus was stop and some ppl in the bus was missing... I looked out from the window and i saw some aunties went down to buy some pau... Then i ask my daddy where are we... He said we are in Bkt Mertajam... Yes after 2 hours we are still in Penang... I asked my daddy why we still in Penang and the answer that he gave me is so surprising me... He said that the driver was not familiar with the roads in penang and he got LOST while i was sleeping!!! AGAIN another feeling of SSSWWWWTTTTT!!!! =.=!!!!!! My heart was scolding that driver: WALAO if u dunno how to drive dun be a driver la!!! Then my daddy continue that the driver found ppl that can guide him to the hotel... Then fine lor... The oni thing in my mind now is to sleep in a comfortable bed in the hotel... Out of a sudden the person who suppose to guide also couldnt help the driver... SO IN THE END WE HAD TO SLEEP AT A SEMI-D HOUSE SOMEWHERE AT BKT MERTAJAM!!!! I was like erm is there enough room for all 40 ppl here in the bus wor? Well luckily there are... So again my feeling of hoping miracles happen appear... I thought: well is a SEMI-D hse rite... it shud hav a class maybe similar to the hotel gua... Well actually it doesnt... If wanna compare i would say is like a 2 Star hotel... =.= Well at that moment i kinda give up for any hope in this trip d... So i straight away go take bath and sleep till the next day...

A pic of the Semi-D house i mentioned

Ok after a not so good night sleep, again i had to wake up at 5am since the bus is moving at 7am... we are heading to alor setar now... but in the meantime we had our breakfast at Sungai Petani... Once we reach alor setar the first place we visit is rice factory... =.= ya i noe is boring... so lets juz fast forward to the next destination, the rice museum... yea another boring place... =.= but actually it wasnt that boring and there are interesting things here... (i cant believe i say this haha)... well i'll show u interesting things that i found here...

Cattle language

Well everyone in the bus is so excited about this museum (except me)... bcoz the museum have something which is the aim of this trip, the nice mural... well at 1st i thought: haiyah is juz a mural i can see it anywhere la, why must come so far to see... well sometimes things juz not as easy as what we thought... after i look at the mural, im very surprise bvoz is juz way too different from wat i thought... it looks so real and i cant believe it is drawn... out of a sudden i felt this trip is kinda worth a little bit...

The mountain outside the museum

An aeroplane

Paddy field

Pasar Pagi

Rainbow

Weather changes

Family photo =D

So after we see this mural we go meet up with my uncle who lives in alor setar... Afterthat we are heading back to KL (FINALLY!!!) but it is another long journey... haizzzz... suan liao... Before going back we had our dinner at some food court at Ipoh... Then me and my bro when down and buy some snacks...

My snack (FATTENING!!!)

My Bro's snack

Acting cute XD

Well after the dinner i plan to sleep in the bus bcoz the tour guide said we will be reaching KL at 1am... so on the way im going to "lalaland", the auntie that suggest to sing k now suggest to on some VCD... well at 1st i thought maybe is a nice movie la so i keep myself awake to see what VCD they watching... Who know they are watching some MALAYSIAN AH GUA SHOW IN HOKKIEN AND WITH ALOTS OF UNCOMFORTABLE ACTIONS AND VULGARS... (now i know what nowadays veterans like to watch =.=!!!) At that moment i was like SWT TILL THE MAX AGAIN!!!!!!!! Luckily i dun understand hokkien other wise i will SWT EVEN MORE FROM THE MAX I CAN REACH! Haiz again my nice "journey to lalaland" had been ruin... I WANNA GO BACK FAST! So i ignore the show, on my mp3 till the max volume and start listening to songs since the journey need to continue...

So finally we reach KL at 1am and i reach home at 2am... I straight go to my bed and sleep like a pig... Home is still the best place!

Well this is how my pathetic trip goes... Maybe you guys dont feel pathetic but to me it is super duper pathetic! Well luckily there are still some nice things in this trip... I really hope all this is juz a dream and never happen in reality... But too bad is already happen and i juz have to face the truth... So i guess thats all the gist of it...

Some Event in Kajang~~

2009-06-01T15:38:00.012+08:00

Haha... EOS is finally over... PHEWWW!!! Finally Im free from STRESS, PRESSURE, EXAM, STUDIES............. (for temporary) HAIZ!!!

Anyway regarding bout this post... On the last day of May in 2009, my parents decided to visit one of my aunt at Kajang... So we went there to visit our beloved aunt... out of a sudden my aunt suggested to go a not-so-nice-and-such-less-shops shopping complex somewhere in kajang... since im kinda bored there coz my cousins all have their own plan so i decided to follow...

So finally we reached... the place is call METRO POINT... (seriously i never heard before)
The 1st thing i saw in this shopping complex is a long line of queue in Baskin Robins... At 1st i had no idea y these ppl so desperate wanna buy Baskin Robin's ice cream... until i look at my hp and i juz realise it was 31th of May... =.=!! Im so slow...

Anyways... erm bout this shopping complex, i would say Sunway Pyramid is 1000000x better than it... the no. of shops is very little even though it is a 4 storey shopping complex... is bout 1/100 of SP's shops... =.=

But what is interesting of this shopping complex (for that day oni) is there are some dance event going on there... when we reached the shopping complex the event was half way through d... but i manage to watch part of it...

There many types of dances in this event... From hip-hop to ballet to latin dance and many many many more... I manage to caught some videos of the dance performances...

P.S. erm i oni caught video of the dance which is interesting... and oso my phone memory is limited... so some of the dance was half way through... PSPS!!

Can Can-sort-of dance with ballet

Ok this is call Latin Cardio Workout... The guy in the video, i thought he is bout 20+ yrs old... But actually he is a 60+ yrs old uncle... Look at his muscles... Unbelievable...

This group is called DOT (i think XD)...

This group is called DRS (i think XD)... they are from JAPAN... Some how they seems familiar... Dunno where i saw them perform b4...

This grp i forgot wat they are called... But their dance is nice...

Some of the photos:-

Haha... these few kids here are dancing hip-hop and they are called "SEMENYIH KIDZ" (erm wat a name... =.=)

Group photos of all the performers...

Overall i would say the hip-hops rulez! (coz i like hip-hops XD)... All the performances are nice and i enjoyed it...

Haiz! When i look at them dancing i kinda miss our orientation dance performance... We gonna hav our performance practice on the 1st day of July... (still got 30 more days) I miss "CALL ME CALL ME" so much... T_T But is ok coz these 30 days is gonna fly like an aeroplane... it will come very very soon... XD Can't w8 till that day...

Finally i would like to show a siggy that i made few days ago... I kinda like it very much... (of coz la... is my creation mah XD)... so next time i would end my post wit my siggy here... juz like this:-

I Wan Nobody... Nobody... Butch You~~ (Malay version)

2009-05-09T17:25:00.005+08:00

Well today when i open my facebook... I saw someone post this video on my homepage... It was a popular korean song "NOBODY" sang by WONDERGIRLS... It was a super hot, sexy dance by 5 sexy hot korean chicks...

Well this video shows a group of malay girls performing using this song... (Is not that they sing in Malay) Erm i would say quite good lar... But of coz if compare to the one we gonna perform in orientation, the difference is like the sky and earth... Haha... Is juz my opinion lar... No offense yea...

Enjoyed this video!

Lecturers Jamming

2009-05-01T10:42:00.006+08:00

Hahaha... Ytd someone mention that one of our lecturer Dr. Srikumar actually play drum in IMU today... Haiz... i wasn't there so i miss it... After a while, Iris actually mention there are 2 videos uploaded in YouTube also showing his jamming session... But that video was uploaded quite some time... But hey, who cares how long it is uploaded... As long as it is nice, all these does not matter...

I would like to share with u all these 2 videos... There are 2 lecturers here... One of them (the drummer) is our beloved Dr Srikumar, another one erm i hardly see him in IMU but according to Iris he is John Paul Judson (aka JPJ)... lol sounds like Jabatan Pengangkutan Jalan haha... Anyways enjoy the video... =D

2009-04-30T23:46:00.006+08:00

Yo all,

First of all i would like to thanks you all for visiting my blog...

Haha... Out of a sudden feel like coming to blog... At first i create this blog to play with those tags... Afterthat i feel kinda boring so i stopped.

After sem 2 of my uni life, i feel many things had changed. Including me myself... There are so many unexplainable feelings and thoughts going around my mind. My mind feel kinda "messy"... Haha... Hope that blogging may help me reduce all these "messiness" in my mind...

I'll keep my blog updated with all my feeling and thoughts that I would like to share with you all... Haha... is almost 12am le and i still got 2 more lectures to study for today... Better go study 1st... Ciao...

Tagged

2008-10-20T13:09:00.000+08:00

1. Is anything wrong?
- No... I don't think so...

2. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
- Haha, depends... If there r open minded i dun mind... of coz must be a girl since im a guy... or else i will be consider as G@Y!!!

3. Do you want to go to college?
- I am oredi university... but if i given chance to stay for memories i will...

4. How many kids do you want to have?
- 2 if is 1 girl or 1 boy...

5. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
- okok la... at least they listen wat i said...

6. What did you do for your last birthday?
- wow... parties... worse of all... going clubbing with collagues... they doing "crazy things"... =.=!!

7. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- studying like mad for biodiversity... thank goodness i didnt fail...

8. Name something you cannot wait for?
- my parent give me a Myvi SE!!!

10. What is one thing you would change in your life?
- Get thinner??? perhaps...

12. Last thing you ate/drank?
- Nasi lemak with air barli... IMU wan ewwwww....

13. Whats your favorite month?
- October...

14. What is your least favorite month?
- January gua... sem starts... no fun...

15. Do you like peanut butter?
- if it goes with bluberry jam on waffle...

16. Who’s making you feel the way you are right now?
- my instinct???? i trust it most of the time... quite accurate sometimes...

17. Most visited web pages
- facebook, msn...

18. Last person to make you mad?
- who else... the maniac in my class name MATTHEW!!!! pls i nvr meet someone so crazy...

19. Pepsi or coke?
- neither... im not good in drinking carbonated drinks... especially the gasses... =.=!!!

20. Have you hugged anyone in the past week?
- erm no more since "that day" haiz...

21. Fun thing to look forward to this week?
- HSM3, shop for presents

22. What do you think about your siblings?
- as usual... making noise haha... more "meriah"

24. Whats your favorite number(s)?
- 8 & 12... dunno y i like it oso

25. What do you do after school/college?
- Vacation... travel around the world (if i got enif money lar...) fullfill my dream...

26. Do you know how to swim?
- Yes...

27. Where were you born?
- some KL hospital... chinise "ma da" = direct translate: "horse big" hahaha...

28. Do you have a crush?
- dunno maybe wateva... dun care...

FRIEND CONFESSIONS

1. Are you jealous of one or more of your friends?
- i dun think so... y shud i jealous sumone...

2. Have you known any of your friends your whole life?
- dunno la.... dun care oso...

3. Are any of your friends taller than you?
- of coz...

4. Have you ever been ditched by a friend?
- nola... i dun think so...

5. Do you have your friend’s phone number’s memorized?
- if easy to remember wan got la... but since i got short term memory so i hav to rely to my hp lor...

6. Have you lost or forgotten a friend’s phone number?
- no... my hp is wit me all the time hehe...

7. Have you been to most of your friends houses?
- if they allow them i will visit la... but mostly say their house messy... so depends la...

8. Do you love most of your friends?
- DUH!!! Is this a question???

*IS SO LONG LA... Tired of doing liao laaaaaaaaaa........

HABIT CONFESSIONS

1. Do you play with things when nervous?
- No... time to think to solve wat make u nervous...

2. Do you have an odd obsession with knives?
- No... I wonder who will... Crazy... Unless u wan to suicide la... =.=!!!

3. Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
- Of coz close la... Or else all mosquito come n bite me...

4. Is there at least one sound you can’t stand?
- Got... MATTHEW ANNOYING SOUND!!!!!!!!

5. What is your worst habit?
- Sleeping in class...
*AWARE!!!! or else ur pic will be post in some website...

LOVE CONFESSIONS

1. Do you currently like/love someone?
- Time to hav some freedom...

2. Do you want to kill one of your exes?
- Y need to kill... didnt do anything wrong oso...

4. Has one of your crushes ever called you self centered before?
- Single now LAR!!!!!!!!!! Rest a while la...

PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS

1. Do you think abortions are horrible?
- Of coz... is an irresponsible action...

2. Are you against or think gay marriage is bad?
- Duh... is pointless... cant hav baby oso... wat for... =.=!!!

3. Is pink an ugly color?
- Maybe... dunno, see how, depends...

4. Needles aren’t so horrible?
- Maybe... dunno, see how, depends...

5. You have plenty of secrets?
- Not much gua... Keep too much secret bad for health... i dun wan destroy myself...

HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS

1. Have you ever fallen UP the stairs?
- perhaps... even baby oso fall UP the stairs... when they climb up la...

2. Have you ever had a nail fall off?
- Nope... i dun think so...

3.Have you ever slapped someone across the face?
- Nola... too "kasar" liao la...

CaMouFLaGiNg CHaMeLeOn

医生的良心

目标

小叮当的时光机

當男孩轉變成男人時

不应该学超人飞

愿望清单

想太多

结束，开始

机会，希望，运气

前进的第一步?

Why do I? Why should I?

我的志愿？

面具

我是谁?

One Step At A Time

尝试

史上最糟糕的平安夜

Access Denied

I'm Officially Missing You~~

"以为", "重蹈覆辙", "想象力" 的罪名

真的不能理解

Sweet Dream: Last Episode

Access Denied

是真的吗? 是对的吗?

史提芬经历离奇事件

You're amazing... Just the way you are...

时间冻结

顽固污渍

想说的话

不见了的"红酒"

烟雾弹

~♫ Nothin' On You ♫~

开学前言

视若无睹

未来 。过去

我想要的...

感觉像五分钟的三秒

人生第一次的日本餐

Quick Updates

心境旅行

Miracle (奇迹)

Incomplete Puzzle (不完整的拼图)

Hermit Crab (寄居蟹)

Record Breaking

Journey to the inner world of Me

Time Traveling

Making Decisions...

U g L y T r U t H

Against will...

New Feelings~~

"Unable to understand" Emotion

非常感人的爱情故事。。。

Thoughts...

Song of the day - Sand drawing

To-Do-List (Hoping)

Kill Me!!!

28th September 2009

"Left Men Right Women" 男左女右

HaPpY BiRtHDaY MaLaYSiA~~

Orientation Korean dance video upload + Update

RhyThM oF ThE MoNtH - 誰說愛情不能作比較 (WHo SaiD LoVe CaNnOt Be CoMpaRed)

StaRt oF SoMeThiNg NeW

Perfect just doesnt exist in this world...

Unexplainable Feelings AGAIN!~~

The Most PATHETIC Trip That I Ever Had!

Some Event in Kajang~~

I Wan Nobody... Nobody... Butch You~~ (Malay version)

Lecturers Jamming

Tagged

未来。过去