Record Breaking

这个星期可以说是我在2010年过得最开心的一个星期
当一个人把他身上所有的包袱放下时
那种冲上云霄，自由自在的感觉
难以词汇来形容

真开心因为那场仗已到一段落了
原来"24364 7826"是件非常困难的事情
要完全办到并不是普通人可以做到的事
能找回自己也是件好事
但人每天都在改变 要找回以前的我是不可能的
能找回八成也算不错了
就算找到以前十成的自己
也不一定是好事
人类是不断的在成长 不断地在进化
找到以前还是一尘不变的自己代表自己并没有比以前好
在这社会上是会被淘汰的

就如标题 我在这星期里破了两个记录
第一个就是食量的记录
自从开始减肥到现在 我晚餐的食量都是少的
就算是有亲戚朋友办自由餐
我最多最多也吃到第二round而已
但因受不住好友烹饪美食的引诱
我破了纪录 吃了第三round
要不是那个carbonara sauce没有了
我应该会吃到第四或第五round吧 xD

第二个是情绪的记录
今天在短短的一个小时半里
我竟然哭了有五六次吧
我自己也不敢相信 >.<"
为何？我当时再看超级星光大道
那集的主题是关于每个参赛者的写真
每个参赛者都有它们各自喜怒哀乐的故事
但多数的是哀惨悲伤和感动人心的故事
不管是在爱情，亲情上
当时的我就好像一个孤魂野鬼
可以附上那些参赛者的身上
然后感触他们的故事
就好像自己有亲身体验过
有些还可以忍着泪水 但有些我怎么忍泪还是留下了
但这被感动哭过的感觉蛮不错的
可以把之前想哭但又哭不出来的感觉一次过哭出来
心是舒服了很多

人类是每一天都在变 每一天都在进化
如果能做到比昨天好 当然是件好事
生活是应该每天开心的
做好自己本分 问心无愧
人生就会完美无缺 有喜没有悲

Journey to the inner world of Me

There is a chinese proverb sounds like this: 三岁定八十...

Which means a person's personalities will be projected at the age of 3...

Well I kinda support this proverb...

I don't know how's my personalities when I'm 3...

Maybe I'm (the current me) like that when 3 years old...

The problem is actually I don't like my personalities...

Don't ask me why... I just don't like it...

People always say "Just be yourself"... "Just be yourself"...

Is not that I don't like to be myself...

But being myself is not as easy as you thought...

Yea some people may think: Hahaha... Nonsense... How difficult can it be to be yourself...

Well, I guess maybe is because I still don't understand me myself yet...

Sound silly right? After living 20 years still being lost in the inner world of me...

Maybe is because last time I don't really care what kind of person I am...

Which lead to the "Lost Me" now...

Haiz I can only blame myself then (>.<")...

Well recently I'm trying to change this "one side" of me...

But I found is not easy... In fact is super duper difficult...

Much difficult than making the sky to fall...

Well this brings another proverb into my situation: 江山易改, 本性难移

Which means to change an empire is even much easier to change a personalities...

Which i think is very true and I'm 100% supporting this...

Well the "not giving up" side of me is trying very very hard everyday...

Everyday going a "Journey to the inner world of ME"...

Try to change this unwanted personality...

I guess "be myself" will not be that "hazardous" if I manage to change it...

I believe I can do it... What I need is time...

As long as I believe I can do it, I will be able to do so...


Till then,

P.S: After you read this post, you may think that I maybe thinking I'm crazy or having multiple personalities disorder... I can tell you I'm fine and normal... I'm just blogging out my thoughts... Which is a normal thing right? xD So don't think so much after reading it... TY!!