Journey to the inner world of Me

There is a chinese proverb sounds like this: 三岁定八十...

Which means a person's personalities will be projected at the age of 3...

Well I kinda support this proverb...

I don't know how's my personalities when I'm 3...

Maybe I'm (the current me) like that when 3 years old...

The problem is actually I don't like my personalities...

Don't ask me why... I just don't like it...

People always say "Just be yourself"... "Just be yourself"...

Is not that I don't like to be myself...

But being myself is not as easy as you thought...

Yea some people may think: Hahaha... Nonsense... How difficult can it be to be yourself...

Well, I guess maybe is because I still don't understand me myself yet...

Sound silly right? After living 20 years still being lost in the inner world of me...

Maybe is because last time I don't really care what kind of person I am...

Which lead to the "Lost Me" now...

Haiz I can only blame myself then (>.<")...

Well recently I'm trying to change this "one side" of me...

But I found is not easy... In fact is super duper difficult...

Much difficult than making the sky to fall...

Well this brings another proverb into my situation: 江山易改, 本性难移

Which means to change an empire is even much easier to change a personalities...

Which i think is very true and I'm 100% supporting this...

Well the "not giving up" side of me is trying very very hard everyday...

Everyday going a "Journey to the inner world of ME"...

Try to change this unwanted personality...

I guess "be myself" will not be that "hazardous" if I manage to change it...

I believe I can do it... What I need is time...

As long as I believe I can do it, I will be able to do so...


Till then,

P.S: After you read this post, you may think that I maybe thinking I'm crazy or having multiple personalities disorder... I can tell you I'm fine and normal... I'm just blogging out my thoughts... Which is a normal thing right? xD So don't think so much after reading it... TY!!