U g L y T r U t H

Truth sometimes can be hurtful...

Maybe not sometimes... I should say ALWAYS...

Knowing the truth in a way is good...

Where you are clear and understand the whole picture...

Eliminate all the confusions and misunderstandings...

Sometimes not knowing the truth is a good thing too...

At least you don't need to face the ugly truth...

Living around with lies and fakes...

At least it wasn't that hurtful...

Everything is still the same...

To a "chameleon" like me...

I thought I always able to "camouflage" to any situation...

But in the current incident happen...

I think I'm not like it anymore...

Because I felt into this "trap"...

With thorns... constrictions... poisons... burns... freezes...

Many many many torturing stuffs...

Well at the beginning I thought I can "camouflage"...

At least prevent from letting predators to catch me...

But now... There is no point to do so...

This "trap" is torturing me...

I thought that if I could escape a "trap" from another...

But it keep appearing and I cant avoid it...

In the end I felt again...

And the pain comes again...

The cycles go round and round again...

With no ends...

I can't stand it anymore...

I seriously can't...

The more I evade... The more it comes...

What can I do????

Suffer the pain until the moment I go into coffin???

I don't think I'm tough enough...

Let the "trap" kill me and live with another life???

But I haven't even try to defeat it... I can't die yet... >.<

Or maybe... Lets put it this way...

I'm just a coward that don't dare to fight it...

How??? What can I do???

Who knows... Maybe I really will die soon...


Till then...