Time Traveling

Time traveling... Literally it means traveling in the time tunnel...

Something that will only appear in fiction...

But come and think about it...

Isn't it great if you can travel to the past or future???

You can undo the all the mistakes you done...

Which is what I wanted all these time...

Since the mistake I made was just too much... Unforgiven... >.<

But this is not happening in real life...

There must be a reason why it doesn't exist...

Come and think about it...

What if everyone is time traveling...

Imagine what will happen to the time line...

It will go chaotic!!!

If we think another direction...

If everyone is undoing the mistake they made...

Will they even learn from mistakes????

NO!!! THEY WON"T!!!

Everytime they did a mistake, they can just undo it...

Every mistakes has a lesson that hidden in it...

If you can't see the lesson, the mistake will happen again...

Until you see the lesson in it...

There is no such thing as "I never done any mistake before"...

Sometimes the moment you are born, Who knows you could be a "mistake"...

Anything is possible in this world...

So next time if you all did mistakes...

Please look for the lesson in it...

Don't be like me... Which fooled by these mistakes...

Until the moment I enter coffin...

Or maybe i should say until my soul's existence disappear from this world...



Till then...

Making Decisions...

A friend asked: If you follow the instinct, where will it ends?

I answered: It will brings us to no end...

Well, if this apply to me on highways and road literally...

Yea it will really bring me to no end (for a road blind like me >.<)...

But if this apply to the path in my life...

Hmmm I would say... I don't know how to answer...

Well I will use my instinct only when I'm lost...

Not always... Sometimes I let God to decide for me - flip a coin (silly right >.<)...

Recently I didn't flip anymore cause the result is always not the one I wanted...

I prefer long and deep thinking with the "inner me"...

But again recently the answer that "inner me" gave me is always wrong too...

And it keeps causing me troubles... One and another...

Like a endless chain reaction...

But sometimes following instinct is not wrong though...

Other than lost, usually people use instinct when the decision that they need make is in 50:50 ratio...

Meaning the consequences of both choices is equal...

But honestly telling you, this is wrong...

Based on my experiences...

There is no such thing as equal consequences...

They must be a slight different between choices...

And don't think that this slight different means nothing...

It will cause big big big trouble if you make the wrong choice...

Just like a small atomic bomb that blast out half of Japan during World War II...

So next time when you want to make decision...

Please do consider follow your instinct...

But with deep thinking of the consequences...

Find out the slight different and weigh the decision again...



Oh to my friend who ask that question...

HAPPY BELATED 22nd BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!!!

Sorry if I didn't bring "rainbow" to your day...

Sorry if I did anything wrong...

AND ALSO THANK YOU!!!

Cause your question make me think more about my life...

You help me discover more about myself...

And FINALLY ENJOY YOUR DAY!!! =D



Till then,

U g L y T r U t H

Truth sometimes can be hurtful...

Maybe not sometimes... I should say ALWAYS...

Knowing the truth in a way is good...

Where you are clear and understand the whole picture...

Eliminate all the confusions and misunderstandings...

Sometimes not knowing the truth is a good thing too...

At least you don't need to face the ugly truth...

Living around with lies and fakes...

At least it wasn't that hurtful...

Everything is still the same...

To a "chameleon" like me...

I thought I always able to "camouflage" to any situation...

But in the current incident happen...

I think I'm not like it anymore...

Because I felt into this "trap"...

With thorns... constrictions... poisons... burns... freezes...

Many many many torturing stuffs...

Well at the beginning I thought I can "camouflage"...

At least prevent from letting predators to catch me...

But now... There is no point to do so...

This "trap" is torturing me...

I thought that if I could escape a "trap" from another...

But it keep appearing and I cant avoid it...

In the end I felt again...

And the pain comes again...

The cycles go round and round again...

With no ends...

I can't stand it anymore...

I seriously can't...

The more I evade... The more it comes...

What can I do????

Suffer the pain until the moment I go into coffin???

I don't think I'm tough enough...

Let the "trap" kill me and live with another life???

But I haven't even try to defeat it... I can't die yet... >.<

Or maybe... Lets put it this way...

I'm just a coward that don't dare to fight it...

How??? What can I do???

Who knows... Maybe I really will die soon...


Till then...

Against will...

Ever feel the eager of wanted to do something but cant do it???

Because everytime when you think of the consequences...

It brings disasters...

Every steps you take...

Every decisions yo make...

Eventually will turn into "chain reaction"...

It will drag many people into troubles...

But if you do nothing...

It remains peacefully to others...

But not to yourself...

Because within you yourself...

The "chain reaction" already begins...

So the solution is...

Either being selfish and drag all the innocence into the "black hole"...

And let them hate you for the rest of your life...

Or not to do anything...

Let the "Black hole" swallow yourself...

And everyone can live happily and peacefully...

So which path would you choose???

I had already made the decision long ago...

Just that Im now on the way back to the beginning and choose again...

Or maybe I should say Im lost in this journey...

Im looking a compass that will lead me to the correct path...

But is not that easy...

Still searching it...

Hopefully I can find it as soon as possible...

Before the "Black hole" swallow me...


Till then~~

New Feelings~~

In this brand new year of 2010...

New feelings arrive together...

This time it has more effect...

Or should I say it gets more "serious"?

Everyday when i woke up I will have about 5 mins of relieve...

After that it comes...

And remain in my heart till the moment I arrive "LalaLand"...

Feel like something possess in my body...

Brings comfort away from my body...

Should I get use to it and follow what "It" says??

Or should I face it to make "It" follow what I say??

I guess is beyond my ability to control it...

What can I do?? What can I do??

Im still looking for answers...

When will solutions come? When??? When???

I guess no one knows...

Maybe Im always the weak one...

Who fated to be controlled by strong ones...

Well I guess what I can do is to wait until miracles appear...

Wait for "the Time for Miracles"...

May "You" come soon... May "It" go soon...



Till then,