史上最糟糕的平安夜

今天超级pek chek的
本来打算剪个头发过圣诞的
怎知道 被剪到很超烂

当我到理发店时
那个常帮我剪头发的理发师不在
应该是放假了吧 留下两个"靓妹"在店里
我想他们也应该ok的吧
打开门做生意 应该有点料的吧
我随便选一个 跟她讲: 剪短,一点点
她用了一个很不爽的语气oh了一声
我也不懂他不爽什么 有没有得罪她
她竟然一下子拿那个电剪就直接从我侧边头发剪过
根本没有estimate下的喔
还好没有剪到像剃光头酱 但是短到很难看咯
嗨 明天还要见亲朋戚友的叻 我要怎样见人啊!!!
整个理发过程我一直冒冷汗
最后连我的逛街mood也被她破坏了

"靓妹"就是"靓妹" 就是靠不住的
算了下次不要找她剪了
pek chek...

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今天 一天内发生了两件事

第一件：一场现实的"梦"
是一场的的确确发生在现实的"梦"
差点就掉进陷阱
还好我还有少许潜意识把我拉回来
从"梦"中醒来

第二件：人性本"私"?
今天放工后 我发现我"老婆"的车胎漏风了
我第一印象告诉我的是
一定是隔壁店的人不爽我泊在那 放我车胎的风
因为我有同事被放警告纸条
但是经过详细检查后 是被铁钉刺到

为什么我们人的第一个印象永远是别人 而不是自己呢
为什么我们不会把责怪的优先权把自己放在第一呢?
难道人性本"私"? (还是只是我而已 xD)

I'm Officially Missing You~~

"以为", "重蹈覆辙", "想象力" 的罪名

最近情绪有点down
一切都是"以为"的错
它就是这件事的幕后黑手
其实我一直都很想把它放下
但是 "重蹈覆辙"一直帮我捡起来
应该是第 n 次了吧 不是很记得了
如果早早把它放下了 现在会不会更好呢?
人家说 男人大丈夫该拿得起放得下
天真的我以为 这应该很容易办到吧
但是 我还是办不到 我不是个男人大丈夫

我也应该怪罪于"想象力"
都是它的错 都是它的错!!
都是因为它 "重蹈覆辙"才一直帮我捡起来
如果"想象力"可以在真确的地方发挥 我会超感激它
但是它一直在滥用职权 一直用在不正当的地方
如果上天想要在我身上拿走东西 那请您拿走"想象力"吧

人家说 世上唯一能解决一切问题的答案是"时间"
那我应该好好利用"它" 让它担任法官
只有"它"能征服"重蹈覆辙" 然后征服"以为"
"它"虽然可以征服"想象力" 但是需要很长很长的"它"
不过 我应该可以办到 (应该..... 我也不知道)
"它"也剩下不少了

嗨... 还是过一日,算一日吧...
希望"以为"不要再犯错了
希望"重蹈覆辙"不要再乱捡了
希望"想象力"不要再滥用职权了

如果妳觉得它们没有错 请帮它们请律师... 让它们罪名不成立...

真的不能理解

有时候我在想
为什么人可以有酱的想法
明明是没有结局 没有将来 没有未来的
但是他/她们还是坚持下去
他/她们会说什么这些是天生的啦
要怪就怪基因啦
Come on lah...
我知道 成语都有所谓的 "情比金坚"
但是老天爷的所为是有原因的
人类就是老是喜欢破坏规则
若越来越多人有酱的想法
真的可能会是造成世界末日的原因之一

想找个聆听者
但是临时找不到
就只好在这里说

剩下两天而已了
我很担心 担心会过不了这一关
我并没有全力以赴
我一直觉得我只是很敷衍地把它读完
每个人正在努力的奋斗着
但是我 我只是在浪费光阴
为什么我就不能好好利用时间呢

在这里怨也不是办法
是该好好利用剩下的时间了

唉....... 我真没用.......

Sweet Dream: Last Episode

Well apparently someone requested me to write my blog in english more often... So here's one of it...

I've been seeing a lot recently
I saw： 

♫ Slight denial
♫ Fear
♫ Prevent
♫ Escape from troubles and misunderstanding
♫ Awkward

So it seems that what I've seen previously
Is just the view I saw when 'the Earth rotates at its own orbit'
I'm still standing at the same position
No one take me away from the spot I'm standing

I guess my sweet dream is at somewhere near the last episode
Is time for me to wake up
I had dreamed for too long too long...

I guess there's no need to worry
I'm getting ready for the worst
Though it is not fully prepared
When I wake up I will still be who I am
Everything will go back to the origin
As if nothing happens...



Even though the week had only reach half, there's no need to continue anymore
Coz there's no meaning since the weekends will not happen to you and me...

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是真的吗? 是对的吗?

现在
我有一百万个 “是真的吗? 是对的吗?” 的问题

但是
我在乎的并不是 一百万个问题里
有多少个的答案 “是真的 是对的”
有多少个的答案 “不是真的 不是对的”

我在乎的是
到底是不是每个问题的答案 “是真的 是对的”
到底是不是每个问题的答案 不是真的 不是对的

希望我能尽快看到我在乎的答案。。。

                                                                                                                                                                    

 ♥   =   The Saltwater Room - Owl City

史提芬经历离奇事件

其实也不是什么离奇事件啦... 只是觉得奇怪而已...

Ok... 事情是这样... 想当年(几天前而已)在面子书~~

有个朋友在面子书里问我，照片里的人是我吗？
那张照片是我去年和名模 Amber Chia 合照的照片
我回答他照片里的人是我
当时我以为她是游览我面子书里的相簿看到的照片
那张照片其实并不是从我的相簿里来的
而是从一个 Amber Chia 面子书的账户来的

离奇想法和分析：
（一）当时我就想 可能是当时在场的摄影师拍的吧
             我印象中好像有摄影师拍我们合照
             然后她在她的账户里 post 上去的吧
             她曾经说过他有面子书的账户
             但应该不是上面指的那个账户
             可是奇怪的是， 那张照片是和我在面子书 post 上去的一模一样
             就算是世界上最专业的摄影师也不可能拍到一模一样吧
             我也相信马来西亚没有酱的摄影师
             还有现在的摄影师都用 DSLR 照相机吧
             怎么可能拍出 quality 没有酱好的照片

（二）Ok... 就算是她从摄影师那边拿到照片
             然后 post 在她的账户里的相簿
             但是当我浏览她的相簿里的照片时
             其他的照片都是她摆 pose 的照片
             还有一些卡通老鼠照片 （可能她喜欢老鼠）
             不然就是和一些 VIP 合照照片
             只有我那唯一的照片是像和平民百姓合照
             我也并不算是个俊男吧
             她也有和很多人合照啊
             我也相信我不会给他留下那么深刻的印象吧
             为什么只有我的照片在那边

经过分析后，我觉得最合理和逻辑来解释这件事应该是这样：

在去年当我 post 那张照片在面子书时
我的其中一个朋友看了之后，然后就 share 给他的朋友
然后他的朋友又 share 给他的朋友
一直 share，一直 share...（经过多次的 share...）
最后 share 到这位冒充 Amber Chia 开账户的人
然后他就把那张照片 post 上去他的相簿里

他的动机是什么？我也想知道咯... 但人心难测... 更何况他是个陌生人...
希望他并不是心理有问题的人 >.<
还有那张照片到底会传到哪里？会传到多少人？也很难猜测，很难想象吧...
虽然我知道在面子书 post 照片的后果有多么不堪设想
我也因此没在面子书 post 照片了
虽然那并不是什么很私人的照片 
但是没想到会在我这里发生
既然那照片已被那个人 post 上去了
应该不可能要他拆下来吧
希望那照片只传到他那边而已 不要再传来传去了

Haizzz....

You're amazing... Just the way you are...

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day (If she ask me)

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her (If I have a chance)
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see (Yup you just don't see what I see T_T)

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say (If she ask me)

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

时间冻结

最近 我再次体会多次“时间冻结”
而体会到的时间停顿也延长了
而这几次和上几次的感觉
也有明显的不同
因为这几次的
我并没有把它复杂化
因为时间也不多了
也没有把它看得很简单
我只是把它看成纯粹的时间冻结

最近 我再次体会多次似曾见过（所谓的 dejavu）
而这几次的感觉 也有明显的不同
最近的似曾见过 感觉越来越强烈
有其一我记得是曾经在梦中发生
这是不是正常？有谁也曾经也有这样的经验？
为什么会这样？为什么我常常会有？为什么？？？

最近 我一直觉得很累
每天都会在课室角落睡着
睡觉也并不是因为课堂很闷
有时有趣的课我也会睡着
身体也觉得沉重酸痛
虽然有时我会怨一下 到底这一切值不值得
但心里却告诉我不要去计较
难道要得到成果，就一定要付出代价吗？

顽固污渍

最近的想象力超丰富的
当无所事事时 会不知不觉进入想象的世界
而且还会去到一个很远很远很远的地方
但是最终我还是会回来现实世界
可是 每一次回来时
都会带回一些“顽固污渍”

这些“顽固污渍”会一直让你想回去那想象的世界

曾经有个人告诉我：在事实面前，你的想像力越发达，后果就“越不堪設想”。

所以我一定要尽快把它清除
可是 暂时还没找到清除的方法
(如果有谁知道清除方法请尽快告诉我 >.< )
现在我只能用时间的流逝 让那“顽固污渍”慢慢地从我脑海里离开。。。。。。

_______________________________________________________

Just a song I would like to share~~~ A song that makes me feel blues~~~

~♫ Just One Last Dance - by Sarah Connor ft Marc Terenzi ♫~



Lyrics~♫♫♫

We meet in the night in the Spanish cafe
I look in your eyes just don't know what to say
It feels like I'm drowning in salty water
A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise
Tomorrow will come an it's time to realize
Our love has finished forever

How I wish to come with you (wish to come with you)
How I wish we make it through

Just one last dance
Before we say goodbye
When we sway and turn round and round and round
It's like the first time
Just one more chance
Hold me tight and keep me warm
Cause the night is getting cold
And I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

The wine and the lights and the Spanish guitar
I'll never forget how romantic they are
But I know, tomorrow I'll lose the one that I love

There's no way to come with you
It's the only thing to do

Just one last dance
Before we say goodbye
When we sway and turn round and round and round
It's like the first time
Just one more chance
Hold me tight and keep me warm
Cause the night is getting cold
And I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

Just one last dance
Just one more chance
Just one last dance

想说的话

最近 当做决定或处理事情时
我都会做到三思或以上
我都会考虑到更远的后果
很少跟着直觉做决定了
除非在逼不得已的情况下
这可能是件好事
至少我能减少很多很多个"万一"发生

回到重点

To: 林兄台，孙兄台，吕姑娘，冯姑娘，吴姑娘，潘姑娘

真的很谢谢你们
谢谢林兄台的细心教导
打扰你的宝贵时间 真的很不好意思 >.<"
还有谢谢孙兄台，吕姑娘，冯姑娘，吴姑娘，潘姑娘
谢谢你们做我的聆听者
要你们听我的噪音 真的很不好意思 >.<"
谢谢大家 能让我在我的 To-Do-List 大个满足的勾
你们的大恩大德 在下没齿难忘

To: "皮"小姐

昨天是你的生日
我竟然一点印象都没有
可能你在我脑海里的存在
已经消失大概一半了
在你还没从我脑海里完全消失前
我只想提醒你 要坚强点
不要再这么容易被人欺负了
不要再这么敏感了
不要再这么感性了
希望你过得很快乐

不见了的"红酒"

最近
我在我的仓库里
做了库存检查
发现有一支"红酒"不见了

它是在1989年秋季中酿制的
这支"红酒"已收藏了二十年了
价值因岁月累积而慢慢提升
也是我遗产里的一部分

现在我非常需要它
没有它 好多事情会变成不顺利
它却偏偏在这个时候不见了

好希望它现在就回到我身边
有谁找到它的话 请马上通知我
我现在真的真的很需要它

烟雾弹

最近走着的路途中
踏上了一条道路
这条道路埋伏了千千万万个烟雾弹
而我也不小心的走了一步
地上埋伏的一些烟雾弹也因此触发了
周围充满了烟雾
视线也被蒙蔽了
心里也有太多因素必须考虑
让我进退两难 左右为难

我该怎么办呢?
难道就只好站着不动吗?

看来我是应该知足了
我现在所拥有的可能已经足够了
视线不应该望得那么远
或许我不应该踏上这条道路
只好怪自己 一直看错了路牌

我很希望有个龙卷风的出现
让这龙卷风把这里的烟雾吹走

或者把我吹到一个新的道路
好让我在这陌生的道路重新开始

你也是这么觉得吗?

~♫ Nothin' On You ♫~

Well recently I'm in love... But in love to a song...
Yup as the title, the song that I in love since the first day that song release...

~♫ Nothin' On You - by B.o.B ft. Bruno Mars ♫~

Lets first listen to the original version...



Lyrics ~♫♫♫

Beautiful girls all over the world, I could be chasing
But my time would be wasted, they got nothing on you, baby
Nothing on you, baby
They might say hi, and I might say hey
But you shouldn't worry, about what they say
'Cause they got nothing on you, baby (Yeah)
Nothing on you, baby (N-n-n-nothing on you baby, n-nothing on you)

I know you feel where I'm coming from
Regardless of the things in my past that I've done
Most of it really was for the hell of the fun
On a carousel, so around I spun
With no direction, just tryna get some
Tryna chase skirts, living in the summer sun
And so I lost more than I had ever won
And honestly, I ended up with none

It's so much nonsense, it's on my conscience
I'm thinking "maybe I should get it out"
And I don't wanna sound redundant
But I was wondering, if there was something that you wanna know
But never mind that, we should let it go
Cause we don't wanna be a TV episode
And all the bad thoughts, just let ;em go, go, go

Hands down, there will never be another one (nope)
I've been around, and I've never seen another one (never)
Because your style, I ain't really got nothin' on (nothing)
And you wild when you ain't got nothin' on? (haha)
Baby you the whole package
Plus you pay your taxes
And you keep it real, while them others stay plastic
You're my Wonder Woman, call me Mr. Fantastic
Stop- now think about it

I've been to London, I've been to Paris
Even way out there in Tokyo
Back home down in Georgia, to New Orleans
But you always steal the show
And just like that girl, you got me froze
Like a Nintendo 64
If you never knew, well, now you know, know, know

Everywhere I go, I'm always hearing your name
And no matter where I'm at, girl you make me wanna sing
Whether a bus or a plane, or a car, or a train
No other girl's on my brain, and you the one to blame

Yeah (laughing)
And that's just how we do it (laughing)
And I'ma just let this ride

Ok~~~ Seems that girls would like to reply to this song too... Lets see what they gonna say...



Lyrics ~♫♫♫

Beautiful girls, all over the world
Let them keep chasin
You know they should be wastin
All their time on you baby, all on you baby
They might say hi, if you dont say hey
Theres no need to worry
You know they will stay
Spendin time on you baby, all on you baby (yeah)

Too many times he showed you
Whats in his mind, never came through
I know you're hurtin and I feel you
See the tears in eyes, when you know you shouldnt cry
Cause he wouldnt for you
I wanna be the one to show you
Just what you need, let me mold you
I wanna be the one youre close to
You are such a find
Thats why I keep you by my side and I tell you

Beautiful girls, all over the world
Let them keep chasin
You know they should be wastin
All their time on you baby, all on you baby
They might say hi, if you dont say hey
Theres no need to worry
You know they will stay
Spendin time on you baby, all on you baby (yeah)

See I dont know why you out here trippin girl
Yeah there are beautiful girls all around the world
But none can compare to the way that you be
Do you an ear plug, I dont think you can hear me
You saying that Im wasting my time
But how is that true, when Im happy youre mine?
You is thinking too much, when I go around the world
Stop assuming that Im getting with a lot of different girls
Cause Im not boo, so true its a fact
I am loyal to you, but its trust you lack
Yeah they would say hi, but I wont say it back
Cause I have you in mind starting with one track
Its a one-track mind that is only for you
A lot of groupies tryda holla, but they got nothing on you
Trust the words that Im speaking out truthfully
Girl its just you and me always till eternity (yeah yeah)

Beautiful girls, all over the world
Let them keep chasin
You know they should be wastin
All their time on you baby, all on you baby
They might say hi, if you dont say hey
Theres no need to worry
You know they will stay
Spendin time on you baby, all on you baby (yeah)

You can go to London, go to Paris, even way down in Tokyo
Down to Georgia to New Orleans, theyre the same everywhere you go
Just like that they never go
Like an Xbox 360 yo
If you didnt know well now you know, know know

Beautiful girls, all over the world
Let them keep chasin
You know they should be wastin
All their time on you baby, all on you baby
They might say hi, if you dont say hey
Theres no need to worry
You know they will stay
Spendin time on you baby, all on you baby (yeah)

Its like that, you know
A wise girl kisses, but doesnt love
She always listens, but doesnt trust
And shes ready to leave him in the dust

And another version which I like the meaningful lyrics... Great job to the song writter...
(Original video - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UMVFsb41nWA)
P.S: embedded disabled >.<



Lyrics ~♫♫♫

I've had a lot of girls in the past but we never made it,
Heartaches to heartbreaks, i need a first aid kit,
Patience is a virtue, true, so i waited,
Then i met you and we sparked like Raiden,
Sharp like Jason, heart's not vacant,
Cuz i got a dime that'll start to make sense (cents)
And that's you, no fake like matrix,
They aint got nothing on, you like naked,
So let me be your blanket and cover you,
I aint like these other clowns, i dont wanna juggle you,
And i aint trying to bug-a-boo, but you're like my destiny, (child)
No playboy bunny, just you for my energy,
Yeah, and you as the centerpiece,
Straight up no zig zags like the letter Z,
Time for settling, no backpedalling
Cuz we run smooth like the sound of this melody

When i seen her, i was nervous
Tried speakin but cut off like a phone service
I pictured me with her and its perfect
Her beauty is contagious and i was allergic
This started when i first met her
Love at first sight so i walk again past her
To make sure, should i skim the book faster
But i dont want to miss a thang in this chapter
End of story baby your now mine
All the money in the world couldnt buy how we spend time
Your the first and the end of the line
Got me feelin so high like im on cloud nine
Your the one who truly knows me
If a bad hand was dealt you wouldnt fold me
Play it out real slowly
i knew the meanin of love but youre the one that showed me

Baby ure the only one ain't no other ones,
Racing for my heart? Well baby ure the one that won,
Them other girls got nothing on you,
Cuz ur heart is wat I carry(Carey) something like drew,
Haha u kno what i mean,
Between me and you, they can't intervene,
We tight and close u can call it skinny jeans,
Me and u together, now that's a perfect team

I'm, hungry for your love but it seems
none of these girls got your taste/
I hada let us fall, heartbreak earthquake
Now im just hopin your heart cirles back to my shape
See they got nothin on you, so you mean somethin
You still got my heart beatin like its fist pumpin
That means you got it on lock, cuffed up, cardio arrest
Swizz beat the beat, you the one , no next

Till then...

(Still in love to this song ~♫♫♫~)

开学前言

明天就要开学了
不知道到底事件开心还是悲伤的事
总觉得好像会有好多愿意的和不愿意的
会从明天开始作为起点
可能是之前发生很多太突然的
当然我希望到达终点会是顺顺利利

看了时间表后
给我的只有一个感觉 - 有没有搞错!!! >.<"
竟然有十多个科目
而且还有很多归类为"干"的科目
惨咯... 想我读到干掉咩...
Haizzz... 考试读死我咯...
还有好几堂课是上到7pm或更迟
看来我该收回我之前说的话了
看来我这次在班上睡觉的次数会比以前的多好几倍了
Haizzz... 还想改过自新的 看来只有改到变本加厉
算了吧 只好见步行步
任达华也曾说过 "一步佳, 一步难"
不要走到步步都难就可以了 >.<"

不知道为什么
心里有种无可理解被压的感觉
又有少许忧愁 少许绝望 少许担心
还有很多很多无可理解的感觉
到底是什么来的 知道答案的可以告诉我吗?
奇怪的是 我家的"Lady Gaga"
会在我有这感觉的时候来安慰我
好像理解我的感受
可惜的是它不会讲人话
不然它可以来开导我了

这个假期给了我一个人静思的机会
有没有收获 我自己也不懂
是时候收拾心情了
回到这个循环的起点
一切从头开始

视若无睹

最近觉得有点无助

大概三四个月前
突然发现身边的亲人
竟然"穿回我以前穿过的烂鞋"
当时的我非常犹豫
到底要插手好呢?
还是不要插手好呢?
最后我选择了视若无睹
我觉得我没有资格去插手
因为这件事 我也曾经做过
但是这位亲人 竟然不会低调的处理
最后事情好像搞砸了
现在才来插手也太迟了

难道我现在只能继续视若无睹吗?
视若无睹 是不是一个好的解决问题的方法呢?



~下雨天了，这么办??? (>.<) (>.<) (>.<)~

未来 。过去

最近 我的亲朋好友们
有的毕业Degree了
也有毕业Master的
也有毕业不久后 很快就开始工作的
也有好多都出国了

他们也开始迈向着他们的未来了
看来我是时候找出
这拖了5年问题的答案
一直活在犹豫的我
以为进了大学就会找到答案
但还是一样 没有分别
每次找答案时总是会遇到死路
有时候找到生路的答案 但并不是我要的完美答案
难道世上真的没有完美的未来吗?
看来我只好面对这事实罢了。。。。。。。。。。。。

昨晚我发了一个梦
梦见非常熟悉的地方
那充满回忆的地方
虽然是熟悉 但我已经很久很久很久很久没有去了
今天刚好有经过那儿
我想 既然经过 过去看看也不妨吧
那儿 跟梦境的也没什么分别
过了那么久 变化也只是那么一点点
我过去那儿坐下来
好多好多画面从回忆里飘出来
喜怒哀乐的 甜酸苦辣的
看来我下次来的机会也不会很大了
但我希望他能保持现在的状态
让我下次来时
还能观赏这喜怒哀乐的 甜酸苦辣的电影。。。。。。

我想要的...

我想要的
是在一个干净的海边 坐在那沙滩上
听着那海浪声 一朵朵的飘上沙滩
看着那晚上的天空
数下那闪闪无数的星星
看着那月亮越过那漆黑天空
一直到日出出现


我想要的
是在一个有宽阔草原的花园
躺在那草地上
看着那晚上的天空
等待流星雨的出现
看着那流星 一个一个越过那漆黑天空
许下心愿 希望每一个都会实现


我想要的
是一个能看出人心想什么的眼镜
戴上后可以让我分辨真实假象
有了这个眼镜
我就可以做对的选择 走出对的道路
做每个不会有错误的选择
这样那些不希望发生的事就不会出现

我想要的
原来都是那些不可能会发生的事
唯有可能发生在梦中
现在就只好让我沉睡在梦中
醒过来后一切就会消失
那是就该面对现实了 不能胡思乱想了

感觉像五分钟的三秒

每当我在马路驾驶时
看见每辆有BKA的车牌
我都会想起那晚发生的事
那遗憾的晚上

从那天起
我们就像那从不认识的陌生人
就算我看你一眼或对你打招呼
你还是一样当我是透明
和你朋友面对时 和以往不一样了
让我有种千古罪人的感觉
其实我只是气你一天而已 而你却...
或许现在这样对我们可能才是最好

今天拿成绩的路途中
在那走廊 我再次遇见你 而且是面对面
不知不觉 我给了你一个笑容
让我出乎意料的 是你也给了我一个笑容
刚开始我是开心的 以为你开始不再当我是陌生人
但是想想下 你给的笑容
看起来 有点勉强 有点敷衍
这只是对我来说而已
事实是怎样 只有你最清楚
但我希望你给的那笑容是真诚的
虽然对你来说这可能只是短短的三秒
但对我来说 经过的是五分钟

我常常在想
到底 分辨真实和假象的困难
本来就是人类的天生 还是经验不足
可能我只是个住在井底的小青蛙
还没见识外面世界的大大小小
我好想要有一个能分辨真实假象的眼镜
让我看透真实假象 让我走出真确的下一步

哈哈 讲讲拿成绩
看见好友们都及格过关
应该啦 我们BM108 全部都及格
一起进入第五个学期
再次破了没人不及格的记录
哈哈 是蛮值得庆祝的啦 xD
还有一年就毕业咯 时间过得真快
现在可以真正享受假期了
是时候实现那些假期计划咯~~ =)

人生第一次的日本餐

日本餐 我对它一点好感都没有
看着那生生腥腥的鱼片
冷冷的 一点都不开胃
吃下去必定"落晒"
所以我从来都不会去吃

不知道为什么 不知道我哪来的勇气
在这个周末 竟然大胆的去尝试了
我们就在那出名平，靓，正的三味寿司店里
在出门前还吃了三文治
怕去到不知道要吃什么 >.<

到了那儿 看着那些旋转的寿司
大概每个寿司都有生鱼片
心想糟了 难道我真的要吃那些折磨肚子的食物吗
不管了 先打开菜单看看 可能还有希望
还好他们有些熟的食物
虽然是熟的 但我印象的日本菜的酱料
好想有一种奇怪的味道
但不管了 肚子又饿了 奇怪就奇怪啦
能医饱肚子就好了
So 我就叫了一个叫做Ebidon的饭
饭上有几片Tempura和蛋 看起来蛮开胃的
真没想到 尝试了一口就让我难以忘记
好想再吃多一碗 但是吃了那一碗就饱了
可是到现在那味道 还是在我口中残留着
真的很夸张咯 就这样我对日本餐有好感了

人生就是这样
要进步的话 就要大胆地走出那第一步
虽然失败的可能性会大
但失中一定会有得 得到的是经验
累积了经验 人才会进步
如果只是坐在那儿等待成功会从天山会掉下来的话
那你就慢慢等吧 等到你死了都不会出现

最近的我 还是继续的"旅行"
有去吃糖水的店 也有去喝苦茶的店
去了照相馆很多次了 也翻开了好多本相簿

说到真正的旅行
明天我会和好友到马六甲去
而且是亲手亲脚驾车去
也是人生第一次
好玩不好玩 我已不在乎了
我只希望的是大家平安
希望一切一路顺风 一路平安

So~~~ 祝我们会一路顺风，一路平安吧~~~

Quick Updates

There's so much to tell...
Too bad time running out (at the moment)...
So I leave it for next time...

Anyway just a little quick updates here for what had done this week...
Yea mostly are: STUDY STUDY and STUDY like no others...
Finals is coming like a TORNADO... Fast and Furious
1 MORE WEEK to EOS!!! and I still got 3 more subjects to go...
Going INSANE at any moment... >.<

Ok other than studies... I did something that I almost giving up doing it...
Which is drinking milk... YEA!! Drinking milk...
For a lactose intolerance person like me... Drinking milk is a WHOA WHOA thing...
And I like to drink milk for your information...
Well out of a sudden the milk in my fridge is calling me to drink it everytime I open the fridge...
And at a moment I cant resist it and I just drink it...
And the results is... NO DIARRHOEA!! Unbelievable...
So which means I can DRINK MILK at anytime I want...
Kinda think bout it if this happens 10 years ago... many things can change...

Last but not least to share... There's one STRANGE thing happen last night...
I had bout 5 - 6 dreams in a shot during yesterday sleep...
The details are not clear after woke up... But roughly still can remember some...
And these dreams is like "half-showing dramas" where it ends without telling the ending...
Somehow I feel like it could be precognition to what happen soon... Haha maybe is just me thinking too much...

Oh well, thats all at the moment... Back to study ler... Good Luck to ALL having EOS next week!! May all the BM108 and the other batchmates pass this semester without anyone leaving us anymore...

Buena Suerte!!! =D

心境旅行

最近经历的 体会的 领悟的
实在是太多太多太多
就算有一百个人的手指都数不完

最近去旅行都去到较远的地方
旅行时碰巧遇见三年前的知己
他带我到一间照相馆里
拿出他收藏的记忆相簿
他说在他的相簿里 有我一直寻找的答案
我用了两个傻眼看着他
但他眯着眼 带了个微笑告诉我
慢慢去寻找吧 你一定找得到
虽经我七七四十九天的闭关观察分析 验“片”解剖
但我找到的只有一点“头水”而已
他过后恭喜了我 然后告诉我
把它带回去吧 然后每天带着它
用在每一天的生活里 说不定答案会自己走出来呢
用了几个星期后 虽说它是有帮了我不少的忙
不管大大或小小事情 它都帮我处理了
但我还是觉得它并不是我要的答案
看来我下次还得去到更远的地方旅行了
希望能遇见更多“多年不见的知己” 帮我找到答案

最近都在不恰当的时候做不恰当的事
说的一些话 做的一些事 都没经过大脑
若我是有哪里得罪了 非常非常抱歉!!!
我以后会说话处事会更加小心的 >.<

哈哈 最近我自创自编了一个红豆水的故事
关于这个红豆水的故事
上集是甜蜜蜜的
突然觉得有下集
但灵感带来的下集好像不是那么甜了
试想想 对 喝红豆水的确是能带来那甜的感觉
但是你能每时每刻的享受这甜的红豆水吗
给你一碗红豆水 喝完了可以再喝多一碗
但总有一天那汤锅里的红豆水会被喝完
喝完了若想再喝是不是又要重新再煲过呢
哈哈 这只是突然一时触灵的下集大纲而已啦
我自创自编的故事只能有甜的感觉而已
到底《红豆水 2》的情节是怎样的呢
我们拭目以待吧！

这几天早上在用早膳时
茶餐厅出现了一对大概六七丈的老夫妻
虽然他们年纪是有点大了
但他们还是很恩爱的享受他们的早膳
他们来回时都是牵着手 非常亲密
他们每天吃的都是一样的早膳
就是烧面包和两杯鸳鸯
那面包是切成一半的
但他们并不是就这样拿来吃
他们会把那半个面包 撕成小小片(可能是少了些牙齿吧 xD)
然后互相你喂我 我喂你的
非常恩爱 我看着他们吃 我喝咖啡都能喝到甜味

看着他们 我在想我五十年后是不是也能这样呢
和我的老婆 能那么恩爱 白头偕老呢
要做到这样 那要看月老所恩赐的缘分 我们能珍惜到什么程度
哈哈 说到缘分 我突然想起小学时玩那个叫作“名字造词”的游戏
就是以别人的名字来造一个词
例如有个人他名叫杰伦 造的词可以是：“杰出的伦语”
那我以前是被造成：“伟大的缘分”
难道我的缘分是“缘”如其名 是伟大的吗
哈哈 未来的事我看不到 但若真的“缘”如其名
我一定会好好珍惜的
希望真的能像那老夫妻一样到老还可以那么恩爱 ♥♥♥~~

Miracle (奇迹)

奇迹
就是那些所谓不可能在平常会发生
那些所谓不平凡的事情

既然奇迹是平常不会发生 是不平凡的
也就是说它只不过是个童话故事 是个幻觉
既然它不会出现
与其相信它 不如面对现实世界
与其奢望它 不如自己解决问题
这就是不相信奇迹的人的想法~~

但是还是有些人选择相信它~~
他们认为这世上有无数的可能性
相信梦想成真的可能性
相信奢望成真的可能性
相信在这个日新月异的社会
什么事都有可能发生

如果你问我是哪个
我是个相信奇迹的人
并不是我非常期待它的出现 来解决我的问题
是因为 我与它碰面好几次了
所以相信奇迹不是天真

对我来说
奇迹就像彩虹
彩虹是雨后遭阳光射到空气水滴的现象
但是是不是每一次与后会有彩虹呢？
不是叻。。。
彩虹可以说要集合天时地利人和
才会有它的出现

奇迹也是一样
它是一直在我们身边
只不过它的出现也要看天时地利人和
不相信奇迹的人
通常都是因为在他们渴望奇迹出现的时候
奇迹没有出现
有时奇迹是有出现 但出现得不恰当
例如当你非常无助时他没有出现
但在那些你有能力处理的事 他就偏偏出现
试想想 如果奇迹每次在你有难出现
人哪会从失败是站起来 哪会从错误中学习
人就只会每天坐着等待奇迹从天上掉下来 =.=!!

其实奇迹是存在的
相信它并不是个错误
那些不相信奇迹的人
是不可能获得和创造奇迹
其实要获得奇迹是很简单的
只要不犹豫的去行动就可以了
有些人认为奇迹出现只不过是运气好而已
所谓的运气好 就是行动的结果
只有去追求 才能抓住那些不可能的机会
那些怀疑一切 惧怕失败的人
是永远不可能创造出奇迹的


那场所谓“已结束”的仗
“乱党”像急流河水一样一直涌进来
（这块地有那么大的吸引力吗？>.<"）
虽然有好多的“乱党”消除了
但是还是消除不完
相信奇迹的我
总有一天全部所有“乱党”会被消除
那时就真的可以开香槟庆祝咯~~ ♫♫♫ xD

[(=] ♫~[××***等待彩虹的出现***××]~♫ [=)]

Incomplete Puzzle (不完整的拼图)

一个完整的拼图
说的故事就只有一个而已

但一个不完整的拼图
藏着的故事是无数
有的让人喜笑颜开 怒发冲冠
有的让人哀是如潮 乐乐不忘

在人的性格上

固执的人 会在意不完整的拼图
在意它的不完美
一定要想尽任何办法
都要把拼图拼成完整的图
把那拼图想展现的一个故事呈现出来
手段会有点狠 但至少得到的是事实

随和的人 不会介意拼图完不完整
能看出不完整的拼图 虽然不完整
但还是有个小故事的存在
然看过的小故事就不会重看
也不会想把他们连接起来
看起来有点潇洒 但永远都被假象捉弄


那场已结束的仗
经过我赶尽杀绝
我已成功地把所有“乱党”消除了
终于收拾完残局了 打完仗了
(开香槟庆祝咯～～ ♫♫♫)

呵呵呵 我也想得太天真了吧
还没呀!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

嗨......... (叹气)
真是一波未平一波又起
现在出现的问题 往往超越了我掌握的范围内
解决问题的方法 我还没找到
但是如果不快点解决 我看来不及了
我们可能会放弃这真个"国家" 怎么办呢？

神啊救救我吧～～ ♫♫♫
请您指导我们下一步该怎么走
请保佑我们能保卫我们的"国家"
不再让外来因素侵犯

Hermit Crab (寄居蟹)

最近有种像“寄居蟹”的感觉
这“空螺壳”居住了个天真又陌生的“蟹”
就像被个小孩的灵魂“鬼上身”
虽然觉得不是自己在控制自己的身体 觉得有点不自在
但至少少了些烦恼 不须想那么多
难怪成人常说：“若能永远不用长大多好”
虽说不想长大能不用那么烦恼
但人还是会成长 经过人生的生老病死
还是面对现实比较好 =D

我以为那场仗已结束了 就等于没事了
原来还有很多残局要收拾
还有些“乱党”趁机造反
看来必须解决了这些乱党才算打完仗
应该不会很困难吧
只要赶尽杀绝 下手重多ditdit 狠多ditdit
问题就会解决了吧 XD

伤心的事就说到这吧
说点开心的

说到幸福 他可以来自很多方向
例如食欲的幸福
这星期吃了很多美食
周二吃了鱼排和薯条配上很多的tartar sauce
幸福在于那浓浓的tartar sauce和鱼排薯条的搭配上
周四吃了奶油鸡饭
幸福在于那浓浓的奶油酱配上鸡丝和些咖喱叶
周五再次吃了好友烹饪的咕噜肉和意粉
开胃的黄梨番茄酱咕噜肉 浓浓又超cheesy的carbonara意粉
回到家还有妈妈留的咕噜肉耶
明天还有自制肉骨茶
欧买尬~~~ 这些让人吃了超幸福超享受的美食
食欲幸福就是这么来的 就是那么简单
但是享受食欲幸福后是要付出代价的
看来我得跑多几圈了 消耗这些热量
虽然代价是要付出 但一切都值得的

今周金言：有时太多的沟通会带来一些误会

so 最好是确认在对的时候，跟对的对象，在对的地点
结合天时地利人和了才沟通吧 就一定会避免不该的误会发生
（aiyo 这么那么麻烦啊...）>.<"

Record Breaking

这个星期可以说是我在2010年过得最开心的一个星期
当一个人把他身上所有的包袱放下时
那种冲上云霄，自由自在的感觉
难以词汇来形容

真开心因为那场仗已到一段落了
原来"24364 7826"是件非常困难的事情
要完全办到并不是普通人可以做到的事
能找回自己也是件好事
但人每天都在改变 要找回以前的我是不可能的
能找回八成也算不错了
就算找到以前十成的自己
也不一定是好事
人类是不断的在成长 不断地在进化
找到以前还是一尘不变的自己代表自己并没有比以前好
在这社会上是会被淘汰的

就如标题 我在这星期里破了两个记录
第一个就是食量的记录
自从开始减肥到现在 我晚餐的食量都是少的
就算是有亲戚朋友办自由餐
我最多最多也吃到第二round而已
但因受不住好友烹饪美食的引诱
我破了纪录 吃了第三round
要不是那个carbonara sauce没有了
我应该会吃到第四或第五round吧 xD

第二个是情绪的记录
今天在短短的一个小时半里
我竟然哭了有五六次吧
我自己也不敢相信 >.<"
为何？我当时再看超级星光大道
那集的主题是关于每个参赛者的写真
每个参赛者都有它们各自喜怒哀乐的故事
但多数的是哀惨悲伤和感动人心的故事
不管是在爱情，亲情上
当时的我就好像一个孤魂野鬼
可以附上那些参赛者的身上
然后感触他们的故事
就好像自己有亲身体验过
有些还可以忍着泪水 但有些我怎么忍泪还是留下了
但这被感动哭过的感觉蛮不错的
可以把之前想哭但又哭不出来的感觉一次过哭出来
心是舒服了很多

人类是每一天都在变 每一天都在进化
如果能做到比昨天好 当然是件好事
生活是应该每天开心的
做好自己本分 问心无愧
人生就会完美无缺 有喜没有悲

Journey to the inner world of Me

There is a chinese proverb sounds like this: 三岁定八十...

Which means a person's personalities will be projected at the age of 3...

Well I kinda support this proverb...

I don't know how's my personalities when I'm 3...

Maybe I'm (the current me) like that when 3 years old...

The problem is actually I don't like my personalities...

Don't ask me why... I just don't like it...

People always say "Just be yourself"... "Just be yourself"...

Is not that I don't like to be myself...

But being myself is not as easy as you thought...

Yea some people may think: Hahaha... Nonsense... How difficult can it be to be yourself...

Well, I guess maybe is because I still don't understand me myself yet...

Sound silly right? After living 20 years still being lost in the inner world of me...

Maybe is because last time I don't really care what kind of person I am...

Which lead to the "Lost Me" now...

Haiz I can only blame myself then (>.<")...

Well recently I'm trying to change this "one side" of me...

But I found is not easy... In fact is super duper difficult...

Much difficult than making the sky to fall...

Well this brings another proverb into my situation: 江山易改, 本性难移

Which means to change an empire is even much easier to change a personalities...

Which i think is very true and I'm 100% supporting this...

Well the "not giving up" side of me is trying very very hard everyday...

Everyday going a "Journey to the inner world of ME"...

Try to change this unwanted personality...

I guess "be myself" will not be that "hazardous" if I manage to change it...

I believe I can do it... What I need is time...

As long as I believe I can do it, I will be able to do so...


Till then,

P.S: After you read this post, you may think that I maybe thinking I'm crazy or having multiple personalities disorder... I can tell you I'm fine and normal... I'm just blogging out my thoughts... Which is a normal thing right? xD So don't think so much after reading it... TY!!

Time Traveling

Time traveling... Literally it means traveling in the time tunnel...

Something that will only appear in fiction...

But come and think about it...

Isn't it great if you can travel to the past or future???

You can undo the all the mistakes you done...

Which is what I wanted all these time...

Since the mistake I made was just too much... Unforgiven... >.<

But this is not happening in real life...

There must be a reason why it doesn't exist...

Come and think about it...

What if everyone is time traveling...

Imagine what will happen to the time line...

It will go chaotic!!!

If we think another direction...

If everyone is undoing the mistake they made...

Will they even learn from mistakes????

NO!!! THEY WON"T!!!

Everytime they did a mistake, they can just undo it...

Every mistakes has a lesson that hidden in it...

If you can't see the lesson, the mistake will happen again...

Until you see the lesson in it...

There is no such thing as "I never done any mistake before"...

Sometimes the moment you are born, Who knows you could be a "mistake"...

Anything is possible in this world...

So next time if you all did mistakes...

Please look for the lesson in it...

Don't be like me... Which fooled by these mistakes...

Until the moment I enter coffin...

Or maybe i should say until my soul's existence disappear from this world...



Till then...

Making Decisions...

A friend asked: If you follow the instinct, where will it ends?

I answered: It will brings us to no end...

Well, if this apply to me on highways and road literally...

Yea it will really bring me to no end (for a road blind like me >.<)...

But if this apply to the path in my life...

Hmmm I would say... I don't know how to answer...

Well I will use my instinct only when I'm lost...

Not always... Sometimes I let God to decide for me - flip a coin (silly right >.<)...

Recently I didn't flip anymore cause the result is always not the one I wanted...

I prefer long and deep thinking with the "inner me"...

But again recently the answer that "inner me" gave me is always wrong too...

And it keeps causing me troubles... One and another...

Like a endless chain reaction...

But sometimes following instinct is not wrong though...

Other than lost, usually people use instinct when the decision that they need make is in 50:50 ratio...

Meaning the consequences of both choices is equal...

But honestly telling you, this is wrong...

Based on my experiences...

There is no such thing as equal consequences...

They must be a slight different between choices...

And don't think that this slight different means nothing...

It will cause big big big trouble if you make the wrong choice...

Just like a small atomic bomb that blast out half of Japan during World War II...

So next time when you want to make decision...

Please do consider follow your instinct...

But with deep thinking of the consequences...

Find out the slight different and weigh the decision again...



Oh to my friend who ask that question...

HAPPY BELATED 22nd BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!!!

Sorry if I didn't bring "rainbow" to your day...

Sorry if I did anything wrong...

AND ALSO THANK YOU!!!

Cause your question make me think more about my life...

You help me discover more about myself...

And FINALLY ENJOY YOUR DAY!!! =D



Till then,

U g L y T r U t H

Truth sometimes can be hurtful...

Maybe not sometimes... I should say ALWAYS...

Knowing the truth in a way is good...

Where you are clear and understand the whole picture...

Eliminate all the confusions and misunderstandings...

Sometimes not knowing the truth is a good thing too...

At least you don't need to face the ugly truth...

Living around with lies and fakes...

At least it wasn't that hurtful...

Everything is still the same...

To a "chameleon" like me...

I thought I always able to "camouflage" to any situation...

But in the current incident happen...

I think I'm not like it anymore...

Because I felt into this "trap"...

With thorns... constrictions... poisons... burns... freezes...

Many many many torturing stuffs...

Well at the beginning I thought I can "camouflage"...

At least prevent from letting predators to catch me...

But now... There is no point to do so...

This "trap" is torturing me...

I thought that if I could escape a "trap" from another...

But it keep appearing and I cant avoid it...

In the end I felt again...

And the pain comes again...

The cycles go round and round again...

With no ends...

I can't stand it anymore...

I seriously can't...

The more I evade... The more it comes...

What can I do????

Suffer the pain until the moment I go into coffin???

I don't think I'm tough enough...

Let the "trap" kill me and live with another life???

But I haven't even try to defeat it... I can't die yet... >.<

Or maybe... Lets put it this way...

I'm just a coward that don't dare to fight it...

How??? What can I do???

Who knows... Maybe I really will die soon...


Till then...

Against will...

Ever feel the eager of wanted to do something but cant do it???

Because everytime when you think of the consequences...

It brings disasters...

Every steps you take...

Every decisions yo make...

Eventually will turn into "chain reaction"...

It will drag many people into troubles...

But if you do nothing...

It remains peacefully to others...

But not to yourself...

Because within you yourself...

The "chain reaction" already begins...

So the solution is...

Either being selfish and drag all the innocence into the "black hole"...

And let them hate you for the rest of your life...

Or not to do anything...

Let the "Black hole" swallow yourself...

And everyone can live happily and peacefully...

So which path would you choose???

I had already made the decision long ago...

Just that Im now on the way back to the beginning and choose again...

Or maybe I should say Im lost in this journey...

Im looking a compass that will lead me to the correct path...

But is not that easy...

Still searching it...

Hopefully I can find it as soon as possible...

Before the "Black hole" swallow me...


Till then~~

New Feelings~~

In this brand new year of 2010...

New feelings arrive together...

This time it has more effect...

Or should I say it gets more "serious"?

Everyday when i woke up I will have about 5 mins of relieve...

After that it comes...

And remain in my heart till the moment I arrive "LalaLand"...

Feel like something possess in my body...

Brings comfort away from my body...

Should I get use to it and follow what "It" says??

Or should I face it to make "It" follow what I say??

I guess is beyond my ability to control it...

What can I do?? What can I do??

Im still looking for answers...

When will solutions come? When??? When???

I guess no one knows...

Maybe Im always the weak one...

Who fated to be controlled by strong ones...

Well I guess what I can do is to wait until miracles appear...

Wait for "the Time for Miracles"...

May "You" come soon... May "It" go soon...



Till then,