These feelings are juz hard to explain in words...
Is like mixture of pains, worries, disappointments and many others feelings...
This feeling juz come out from no where...
I didnt do anything bad recently...
I dont have anything to worry (except my weight but thats not the problem)...
But why this feeling appears?
Why? Why? I really have no idea...
Is this an effect of "emotional malfunction"?
Coz is been a very long time I didnt feel emo...
So my emotional suddenly malfunction?
If thats the case where can I send it to "repair"?
Or this is a sign for asking me stop being Happy Go Lucky?
Telling me the life I choose isnt as easy as I thought?
Or asking me for not to be naive...
Telling me miracles juz dont exist and not to believe in it?
But life suppose to be happy isnt it?
Somehow this feeling is like giving me a warning...
Somehow my instinct told me that something very SERIOUS and very BAD which will
react like a chain reaction that will also affect others and the impact is also
very serious is going to happen soon...
Warning me to be prepared so that I wont lost at that time...
If this the case, I DONT WANT IT TO HAPPEN!!!
I want to be the Steven that is Happy Go Lucky...
I will still believe miracles do exist in this world...
I know the path I choose is not easy but I still believe I can do it...
Since I had breakthrough many "obstacles" that blocking my path...
I believe I can do it! Yea Steven is not a Weakling!
I hope this feeling will gone very soon...
Or I guess I have to face it and turn it into experience...
So next time when this feeling comes again I know how to handle...
I juz want to find the key to lock this feeling...
Hope I can do it...
















